I can still only think to jump but terrified I don't die and crippled and wouldn't even be able to be at home I know of someone who jumped from same spot ive found and they were male and strong but died instantly could I be sure in anyway I would too this I all too much now the tinnitus and hyperacusis is making me so ill I never knew anxiety could make you so ill I feel so uncomfortable and ill I was so fit and well healthy happy living a wonderful life this came from nowhere ive no clue what set it off my ears were perfect hearing was perfect loving life ate well and healthy lived well was happy calm I could have taken anything on the planet but this its cruellest condition how I wish it would stop its not even like tinnitus everyone else gets its deafening jet plane roaring hammering drilling hissing and screeching but everything normal is amplified and sounds same as the hammering so ill with anxiety weight loss massive hair loss cant eat or sleep cant live like this can anyone help me for the tinnitus even I had so much life to live so many plans this cant be happening if it would just stop id take some getting well now I could scream letting myself get so physically ill I feel trapped want my life but with quiet ears do all I did or die and don't know how never knew it was so hard please someone make it stop x
KUA
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- Jun 12, 2020
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GravityUtilizer
Born to lose
- May 22, 2020
- 737
Yeah I basically had a nervous breakdown when I first got tinnitus and hyperacusis in 2010 so I feel ya. Big time. The hyperacusis pretty much went away as the anxiety settled but the tinnitus you've gotta just learn to live with. Most days I forget I have it, though I do make a point to always put on nature soundscapes when I'm having quiet time. The thing that helps me most is knowing it's not always there and even when it is, it is often only because I'm fixated on it and for me most ambient noise environments are enough to block it, albeit with occasional spikes that come and go.
What you've really gotta do at this point is help soothe the anxiety and fixation with distraction as much as possible.
It was once part of my reasoning to cbt but no longer is. But I'm damn sorry you're going through this x
What you've really gotta do at this point is help soothe the anxiety and fixation with distraction as much as possible.
It was once part of my reasoning to cbt but no longer is. But I'm damn sorry you're going through this x
Anxiety is a tough thing to deal with and something I have suffered with for years now. I would recommend seeking help or looking at ways to handle it. I wish I knew the best but honestly it's different for every person. There are some great resources online though. Don't think it's just you with this trust me there are plenty of us.
BlackPoppet
Wise woman and Celtic sky person
- Mar 7, 2020
- 991
I suffer from anxiety greatly. It's distorted things and robbed so much from me. I can't go out unless I take something to calm me down. I'm still living in the place that had caused me a great deal of anxiety. But I have no choice at the moment to leave. Anxiety can be extremely debilitating. I have GAD.
Soul
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- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
@Lonelyman and @KUA, @Susan Caswell is a long-term member here with long-term problems. She's tried just about every kind of treatment medicine has to offer people suffering from her disabilities.
@Susan Caswell, how can we help you? Are you seeking information about a specific jumping site, or ... ?
@Susan Caswell, how can we help you? Are you seeking information about a specific jumping site, or ... ?
Ive found somewhere but don't know if its high enough and terrified I don't die and crippled with deafening tinnitus and couldn't even live at home. I know someone jumped from there and died instantly and he was male and healthy and strong just don't know how else to go but need to be put of this horrendous torture its cruel deafening noise both ears that you just cant tolerate im no wimp but I cant take this 3 years has taken terrible toll on my health I was so healthy fit happy living a lovely life this came from nowhere perfect ears to this im so ill I never knew it was so hard to go either I used to think it was an easy way out and what could be so bad that you want to die but this is tinnitus level you can stand live with ok but this is jet plane roaring hammering drilling hissing all normal sound is deafening im so weak just not eating cant sleep if I just stop eating and drinking altogether how long would it take ive hoped and hoped this would stop just go down let me get built back up and well I thought I had 20 plus years left doing all I planned never thought id ever have to consider taking my own life ive had so much medically and always got well but this is like being tortured alive I couldn't even get normal tinnitus I cant find anyone world wide with tinnitus close to this why me now life was perfect I loved my life all I wanted was normal happy life no one can take noise like this both ears 24/7 if only it would go back to how it was when it started I coped it was one ear one noise no amplifying no anxiety please someone help me there should be Euthanasia in every country we should have the choice with our own lives I cant believe this has happened and no clue what set it off went to bed perfect woke up deafening tinnitus 25 July 2017 ive tried to cope live with it but its too extreme now and anxiety crippling I never knew anxiety could make you so ill ive lost over 2 stone most of my hair I looked well and healthy always out on my bike or walking dance class please can anyone help me im so very tired x
Isadeth
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- Jun 12, 2020
- 2,538
Have you had an MRI to get a better look at the mastoid air cells? This could be the reason for tinnitus. I.e. mastoiditis. Besides any structural damage, surgeries or what not, medications can cause it, and so can high blood pressure, anxiety, etc.
I'm not sure what all you've tried over the years, but I hope you're able to find relief from the tinnitus and anxiety. If you can't afford an MRI due to health insurance or lack of, I'd be more than happy to assist you in the process for getting around the system and having one done for free. I wish more people knew the resources available that hospitals don't want many pts to know. ♡
I'm not sure what all you've tried over the years, but I hope you're able to find relief from the tinnitus and anxiety. If you can't afford an MRI due to health insurance or lack of, I'd be more than happy to assist you in the process for getting around the system and having one done for free. I wish more people knew the resources available that hospitals don't want many pts to know. ♡
Thank you for your kindness bit yes had 2 MRI Scans and a CT Scan and every test know to man nothing has shown as cause im sure its been medication long term then so many anxiety meds since this started and sleeping pills im sure has made it so extreme loud and caused the hyperacusis im in a terrible way x
Are you in the UK ?
Isadeth
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- Jun 12, 2020
- 2,538
I am not in the UK. When they did your MRI scans were they specifically looking for your ear issues? And was the last one recent? I've been a chronic migraine sufferer with intractable headaches after I broke my neck in 2008 and have had countless MRI's tell me "you're good" until my last one last month which has shown brain lesions along with my hearing loss from randomly rupturing my ear drum for a one time ear infection. Have you seen specialists for your ears and not just a primary doctor? Sorry for the 20 questions, but I definitely want to make sure you aren't possibly missing something that can help you before making a final decision on anything. ♡ I understand all too well just wanting it to stop. Xx
Thank you the MRI checked ears, brain, neck, jaw. Yes ive seen 4 ENT Consultants, 3 Tinnitus Clinics and every therapy known to man plus vitamins and supplements no one any clue whats cause this. Tinnitus doesn't get worse and worse louder and louder the amplifying is now horrendous its as if my ears have no filter whatever regulates our hearing has gone really wrong im sure its been from long term meds and then all the meds since for anxiety and sleep caused from the tinnitus just have made it deafening ear splitting cant hear anything properly anxiety is so bad I feel so ill but my ears now feel full pressure pain burning this cant be right how do I live with noise in both ears so loud knocks me sick ive never heard an external noise this loud my ears were so good I just cant understand how I went to bed fine woke up just a few hours later deafening noise 3 years of it taken terrible toll I couldn't stay like this rest of my life and ive tried everything to get to the bottom of this get it down it was nothing like this at the start it was one ear one noise I coped but this is too much 24/7 never stops I can also feel the hammering I thought it would stop that I couldn't be this unlucky but looks like it wont or cant if only I could stand it live with it I don't think anyone cold stand this its cruel I wish it would stop let me get well I fear my ears are going to kill me and don't know how to go but ive got to get quiet peace I hated noise but this is horrendous I cant find anyone world wide with tinnitus like this why me now all was great loving life a wonderful happy life. Im so sorry your suffering too x
