Venting Job hunting is making me want to die

[noatacanti2020]

I been job hunting since the week before Christmas and can't find shit. I am tired of being worthless and reminded that i am a fuck up

 

[parasite_eve]

Yepppppp same same same. And this system relies on a constant level of unemployment plus everyone employed being precarious to remain profitable; ghoulish.

 

[skylar160]

And it's even worse with a criminal record. One of the reasons I want to ctb.

 

[danny10]

One of the reasons I want to CTB is because I lost my job that I loved. Fucking depression and anxiety hit me hard and out of the blue, so I was fired from my job. Now I cant find anything other than really shitty jobs with a really shitty paycheck. Hence the reason I wanna CTB.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Me too.

 

[byebyered]

Same. Wtf is going on

 

[unwilling_lich]

yeaaa, cant drive and i never went to college, i want to get out of the food service hole so fucking bad but i cant, too weak to do anything laborious too, plus being trans no one wants to fucking hire me and when they finally do they treat me like shit

 

[kalashnikova]

Literally can't find a fucking job, applied to every single one near me and one of them even cancelled my interview! Absolute bullshit.

 

[areyousafe??]

Working makes me want to ctb. I am so much happier not working.

 

[parasite_eve]

One of the reasons I want to CTB is because I lost my job that I loved. Fucking depression and anxiety hit me hard and out of the blue, so I was fired from my job. Now I cant find anything other than really shitty jobs with a really shitty paycheck. Hence the reason I wanna CTB.

Yepppp top performer but came out as trans and disabled asking for reasonable accommodations and that was it for me.

Now I can stop the rat race though and finally find peace.

 

[KillingPain267]

After my 300th job application and automatic response rejection I gave up

 

[WatchmeBurn]

I've been looking for a job since May when I finished my Master's. It's so dehumanising. How am I meant to value myself when hundreds of other people don't, given they don't want to even give me a chance?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Same here. I want to ctb to avoid having to deal with work and all that. I love myself and so I want myself to not be subjected to such a fate where I have to worry about working and put in a lot of effort just to inevitably fail in the end anyway due to having social problems. I'm not meant for work at all since I just can't adapt to the demands that society has placed for work and this applies to every job, even the so called "low level jobs".

Additionally, I wouldn't ever gain any enjoyment from it since I have never enjoyed things like academics or work or whatever. Those type of things never inspire me and never will. I know that I'm somebody who just can't deal with what the world has in store for me and I don't want to deal with those challenges either. I want to avoid it entirely and I don't see how I'm in the wrong for doing so since there is no inherent value in continuing to live. There's nothing wrong with giving up since there has yet been a reason as to why we shouldn't give up and push on through life until we die naturally anyway. I'm not a loser for giving up because I never voluntarily decided to play this game in the first place and because we all have to die eventually anyway.

 

[greebo6]

Its horrible and does increase the desire to ctb .

 

[Daxter777]

I just feel fucked in general. Job hunting, interviews and training give me hell of a lot of anxiety (GAD) if I land the job my MDD kicks in and I become so overwhelmed and hyper depressed that I end up quiting. Honestly I don't know what to do at this point. My suicidal ideations also multiply thanks to this shit.

 

[aac894]

After my 300th job application and automatic response rejection I gave up

Exact same situation here, I even kept a spreadsheet to track all my applications that's how I know it was nearly 300. Not even an interview, just rejection emails generated by Workday

 

[KillingPain267]

Exact same situation here, I even kept a spreadsheet to track all my applications that's how I know it was nearly 300. Not even an interview, just rejection emails generated by Workday

I got 2 interviews from my 300-and-some-odd applications. Going to an interview and then getting rejected is the ultimate waste of time and energy. Now I'm at the point where I don't even wanna work. Because it will always be in the back of my mind that they hire me out of pity or because I'm the only choice. I know I will just be fired anyway sooner or later because I'll always be the "quiet type" due to my severe social anxiety. Fuck it, now that suicide is a realistic option, what's the point.

 

[BlooBerryBanjo3000]

Same here. I want to ctb to avoid having to deal with work and all that. I love myself and so I want myself to not be subjected to such a fate where I have to worry about working and put in a lot of effort just to inevitably fail in the end anyway due to having social problems. I'm not meant for work at all since I just can't adapt to the demands that society has placed for work and this applies to every job, even the so called "low level jobs".

Additionally, I wouldn't ever gain any enjoyment from it since I have never enjoyed things like academics or work or whatever. Those type of things never inspire me and never will. I know that I'm somebody who just can't deal with what the world has in store for me and I don't want to deal with those challenges either. I want to avoid it entirely and I don't see how I'm in the wrong for doing so since there is no inherent value in continuing to live. There's nothing wrong with giving up since there has yet been a reason as to why we shouldn't give up and push on through life until we die naturally anyway. I'm not a loser for giving up because I never voluntarily decided to play this game in the first place and because we all have to die eventually anyway.

Me too. I honestly thought I was the only one who felt this way about work and life. I see life as a rigged game that we're all forced to play. I guess you either accept it or end it.

Working makes me want to ctb. I am so much happier not working.

Me too. Even just thinking about having to work makes me want to CTB.

 

[ConstantPain]

I have a job that I hate and I would love to quit but the stress and energy it would take to find a new one is too much. I've been working from home but received a nasty email about having to be in the office 3 days a week. It absolutely makes me want to ctb. I don't know if I can even physically handle going in 3 days and emotionally know I can't.
I desperately want the "silent killer" to strike and welcome a fatal heart attack or stroke! ASAP!

 

[flakeyknight]

Failed to land an internship during undergrad. then failed to land one again in graduate school. Im getting close to 30 with no job experience in my major and I have terrible suicidal thoughts when preparing for interviews

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Most restaurants are hiring now. Could be something to consider to hold you over temporarily.
Most restaurants are hiring now. Could be something to consider to hold you over temporarily.

 

[Autumn_Stars]

Don't give up. I spent my life underemployed and suicidal. In 2010 I was working at a summer art camp and my boss gave me a study guide for the civil service exam in Philadelphia. I ranked first. I managed my own recreation center. One Christmas my boss kissed me on the mouth. I was making 64K a year. It was like a dream. I got a car and a house. I donated to my favorite charity. I thought I was set for life.

 

[Worndown]

Job hunting makes everyone want to die. Nothing like bowing down before someone and hope you get chosen.