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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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Dancing attracts attention and I'm jealous of dancers who are confident in themselves with those "feel good" hormones pumping in their body. This is one talent I wish I had in my youth to attract attention to myself
 
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cyanlove

looking for my other half (of my skull)
Dec 23, 2021
147
Dancing attracts attention and I'm jealous of dancers who are confident in themselves with those "feel good" hormones pumping in their body. This is one talent I wish I had in my youth to attract attention to myself
Does this make you suicidal?
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
Does this make you suicidal?
Yes I'm jealous of carefree dancers that attract attention to themselves and enjoy it. I wish I felt good
 
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TakeMeBack07

Failure
Jan 16, 2022
128
nice, an alternative goal as opposed to suicide
:D
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
nice, an alternative goal as opposed to suicide
:D
Lol yeah but it's too late wish my parents had the funds and resources and knowledge to put me in dance at a young age
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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Lol yeah but it's too late wish my parents had the funds and resources and knowledge to put me in dance at a young age
Why do you say it's too late? Do you only want to pursue some types of dance you've mentioned here or would any make you happy?

In high school I discovered Hatsune Miku's World Is Mine and became obsessed with learning her dance, but I never shared my love for anime/vocaloids/Japanese culture with my family so it was only something I'd do when alone. I pursued it the first few years in college enough that I've mostly got her dance down, although I'm rusty and not perfect since I'm self-taught. I also periodically get obsessed with odorite, I still love watching certain dances but they usually have groups so I could never truly do that as I desired since I don't have irl friends, or else friends interested in dance (even hypothetically I got shot down by others). This type of dancing is mostly something I do by myself and for myself so it doesn't matter if I "know how to dance" par say, it's for my own enjoyment. I've only ever danced like this once in an anime convention I went to alone. In some ways I think unless you physically can't pursue it, it's still possible. Not having energy and being drained from mental issues can make it hard, but it doesn't mean it's completely impossible.

I know you always mention belly dancing but there are many types of dancing out there and some are much easier. My mother liked to do line dances and she'll go out to dance at bars and there's the whole spectrum of people dancing from young to elderly. They'll have teachers teach certain dances and again there are a wide mix of people trying to learn. I know since I've been forced to some such events, and I can't dance very well but some line dances are so simple even I can get them. For many types of dances there are lots of online resources to learn from, or even just you can try learning from videos of others dancing. It seems you like how dancing could bring attention, but would you gain anything from dancing on your own and doing it just for yourself? My sister is probably the best dancer I know (she does line dancing too, and a few others) and she's self taught for the most part, she just found instructional videos online. She always looks beautiful to me when she's dancing since she just puts her all in to it when she goes out on the floor or practices, and she did put in enough practice on her own that she can be confident when out there.

Even if I perfect an odorite's dance, it won't make me want to keep living as things are really, but even at the point I'm at I don't see it as too late for that. Most skill in dancing does come from practice from what I've seen, and then the practice can probably build the confidence and joy we see.

On a separate note, still hoping to find others to learn and preform this dance with me...
 
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Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
Practice...
Mirror..
Perfection.
 
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davidgeorge

Experienced
Dec 21, 2021
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Love this thread!
 
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nothinginterest

Member
Mar 29, 2022
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I like dancing too. I watch Korean dance choreography every single day.
 
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TakeMeBack07

Failure
Jan 16, 2022
128
Lol yeah but it's too late wish my parents had the funds and resources and knowledge to put me in dance at a young age
My parents were too poor as well. hobbies were/are expensive as hell, especially music, which i wanted to do
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
My parents were too poor as well. hobbies were/are expensive as hell, especially music, which i wanted to do
That sucks I'm sorry I relate. Did you do anything else in your youth?
 
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TakeMeBack07

Failure
Jan 16, 2022
128
That sucks I'm sorry I relate. Did you do anything else in your youth?
Nah. also, I learned very early that i'd never be accepted by people you see in these groups, even in the ones i tried myself from my own decision (after school things like debate). they never lasted long. people found me odd. i've not been able to fix myself because i cant pinpoint the problem. but honestly, if i saw someone like myself in one of these groups, i'd avoid them too. i WAS an odd kid, haha.
 
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miserable_existance

I don't know
Dec 17, 2021
72
Dancing attracts attention and I'm jealous of dancers who are confident in themselves with those "feel good" hormones pumping in their body. This is one talent I wish I had in my youth to attract attention to myself
i am jealous at everyone and everything , i have been googling online to get a scientific name for my condition , i am 30 years old , i am jealous at even a 5 year old , i am jealous at an 18 year old boy :- jealous at his youth . the list continues forever , i am jealous at people who have met death accidentally . i am jealous at people who get laid everyday . my reply post is completely unrelated to the thread , does anyone know the name for my condition
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
If only at 23 I enrolled in adult dance classes I wouldn't be so isolated rn possibly had new friends at 28/29 and learned a new fitness skill it really sucks I allowed that south Asian guy to destroy me so much
 
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