Jealous and envious of doctors/veterinarians/police officers

[Defenestration]

Jealous and envious of doctors/veterinarians/police officers

Sorry if there are any doctors, veterinarians, or police officers here, but I'm very jealous that they have a lethal means at their disposal (for sure and certain) and I don't. I envy them so much, but I'm also so jealous of them...

 

[FuneralCry]

I do as well as all I want is to painlessly cease existing, I just want peace from this torturous, dreadful existence that I never would had chosen, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just access Nembutal to escape from the mistake of existence.

 

[Defenestration]

 

[вечный сон]

Suicide is not illegal but These Bastards leave us only Option to do it in a painful way with possibility of failure. Everyone should have the possibilty to obtain N when your 18+ and lower in special cases. I tried getting help from MAID but they declined. Fuck am i Supposed to do now? They are basically saying "no, you have to do it in a painful way instead of peacful with N" fucking dumb shit.

I too am jealous of vets and docs. Police too but i'd prefer N over Gun any day. People got shot in the head and wear totally fine afterwards. For example this woman who got shot in the head in the las vegas Shooting in 2017

Vegas Shooting Survivor Continues Remarkable Recovery Five Years Later https://share.google/q9cmFPnsJITdnRy4u

If i'd shoot myself, i'd always combine it with einher standing in a lake or while jumping or hanging just to be sure.

 

[itsgone2]

I was just reading a user story that was pretty sad in how far gone they are. I thought, if this were a dog we would put them down
if a dog attacks and kills someone, it's going to be put down. A criminal convicted of such a crime probably gets out one day.
We treat pets more humanely. We are more imposing with justice. Stupid. N should be available

 

[Macedonian1987]

Few years I had an opportunity of a lifetime. I took a stray dog to the veterinary doctor because it was injured (bitten by other larger dogs). In the veterinary office there was only one doctor and when I brought the dog inside, the doc got into another room and I was alone for a minute. There were a few bottles of Euthasol. I was severely tempted to steal one, but there was a security camera right above me


If I had plans to ctb in a very near future I would've stolen a bottle, camera or not. But the problem is I plan on ctb in a year or two and the last thing I need right now is to deal with the police on top of my chronic pain.

 

[kopebaldy]

In my youth I did everything to avoid the mandatory draft.

Thinking back it was a stupid fucking decision. That was the only time where I could access to loaded weapons, legally.

Fucking dumbass.

 

[Defenestration]

Thanks i understand