i've taken my sn

[Hollowillow]

You're online. Everything okay?

Really? I was hoping no reply for days meant he's free... I hope it's a ghost glitch.

 

[madebrief]

You're online. Everything okay?

How you'd pick that one out? But yes, could be anyone until we get more info.

 

[akirat9]

i not take it
i was waiting for something useless first i turned back at the last minute to see it


well today i see and it just made the pain worse. im sorry i not take it then as i say im ashamed i didnt take it then either:(
now i only has 30G of sn left coz i waste other drain
suicide very hard to do no much the impluse

 

[Hollowillow]

i not take it
i was waiting for something useless first i turned back at the last minute to see it

View attachment 99062
well today i see and it just made the pain worse. im sorry i not take it then as i say im ashamed i didnt take it then either:(
now i only has 30G of sn left coz i waste other drain
suicide very hard to do no much the impluse

Aww, thanks for telling us we were worried. I can't read kanji what did it say? You might be able to nope out with just 1 dose. If desperate vomit in a glass and put it back in... And you can do partial hanging

 

[akirat9]

i cry for the first time in year

i just want be believed in see the potential

Aww, thanks for telling us we were worried. I can't read kanji what did it say? You might be able to nope out with just 1 dose. If desperate vomit in a glass and put it back in... And you can do partial hanging

it say

Thank you very much for reaching out and submitting your game to PLAYISM!
Our evaluation team has reviewed your submission. Unfortunately, we believe PLAYISM's current portfolio does not quite match your game, and we would like to politely decline this opportunity.
That being said, we would like to wish you all the best of luck with this game and we will be very happy to hear from you about any future projects.

Best regards,
PLAYISM Support Team

is the 8 and last try
no one but me care for my mobile game
i no see how mobile visual novel jrpg not fit portiflio is no understand

 

[Hollowillow]

i cry for the first time in year

i just want be believed in see the potential


it say


is the 8 and last try
no one but me care for my mobile game
i no see how mobile visual novel jrpg not fit portiflio is no understand

It sounds cool. Translate it in english? Can you self publish it? They only care about gatcha games that will make people go in debt 6000$ for a character lottery. Your game sounds way better! I hope you can publish it by yourself somehow.

 

[akirat9]

It sounds cool. Translate it in english? Can you self publish it? They only care about gatcha games that will make people go in debt 6000$ for a character lottery. Your game sounds way better! I hope you can publish it by yourself somehow.

hey at leats you care )
i can only self publish if i still here
i hate gatcha games too and micro-transaction

 

[Hollowillow]

hey at leats you care )
i can only self publish if i still here
i hate gatcha games too and micro-transaction

I'd try to self publish before dying. Is it expensive? Worst case scenario you're bankrupt & dead instead of just dead?

Do you have screen captures? Is it an android game? I can't read but I'd like to see some.

 

[akirat9]

I'd try to self publish before dying. Is it expensive? Worst case scenario you're bankrupt & dead instead of just dead?

Do you have screen captures? Is it an android game? I can't read but I'd like to see some.

not have the mental fortuide anymore, ths last thing really show me useless i am
can only vent about it here nothing really change. at least i got what i waited for so now theres nothing truly hold back
to many bad ppl no enoguh good

 

[Hollowillow]

not have the mental fortuide anymore, ths last thing really show me useless i am
can only vent about it here nothing really change. at least i got what i waited for so now theres nothing truly hold back
to many bad ppl no enoguh good

I respect your desire to leave a world where gatcha games became the norm.

But please don't believe that you're a useless failure. Games like yours are priceless. I miss real games with a story.

My mind is broken too... I could fix my health if I trashed everything I own & moved to a smaller more expensive room... I'd flee the toxic allergen that I stupidly put everywhere... But I just ran away from mold, took me 4 years... I can't do again... No one wanted to rent to a jobless invalid with no references... I only got cheap housing out of last resort pity... Was my last chance... I begged them for help to send their chemical specialist... They basically spat on my doctor's note & left me to die... The only help was psychiatric not physical... But they wouldn't give me therapy either... Got banned for not being positive enough in the therapy I found... Rejected even there.

Let's die. But I'm sure your game is awesome. Jerks unable to appreciate that because they just want to manipulate kids with gambling games... Their opinion don't matter. You do.

 

[akirat9]

I respect your desire to leave a world where gatcha games became the norm.

But please don't believe that you're a useless failure. Games like yours are priceless. I miss real games with a story.

you make me cry again:(
is not no else believe in me

I respect your desire to leave a world where gatcha games became the norm.

But please don't believe that you're a useless failure. Games like yours are priceless. I miss real games with a story.

My mind is broken too... I could fix my health if I trashed everything I own & moved to a smaller more expensive room... I'd flee the toxic allergen that I stupidly put everywhere... But I just ran away from mold, took me 4 years... I can't do again... No one wanted to rent to a jobless invalid with no references... I only got cheap housing out of last resort pity... Was my last chance... I begged them for help to send their chemical specialist... They basically spat on my doctor's note & left me to die... The only help was psychiatric not physical... But they wouldn't give me therapy either... Got banned for not being positive enough in the therapy I found... Rejected even there.

Let's die. But I'm sure your game is awesome. Jerks unable to appreciate that because they just want to manipulate kids with gambling games... Their opinion don't matter. You do.

i matter ?
but i have no other chance; like a child, it can only live if i do
but in world like this, can it survive ? i hoped so
coz i want to see other experience game , that matter to me more than any thing; making it, see other exp it, not money.

 

[Hollowillow]

you make me cry again:(
is not no else believe in me



i matter ?
but i have no other chance; like a child, it can only live if i do
but in world like this, can it survive ? i hoped so
coz i want to see other experience game , that matter to me more than any thing; making it, see other exp it, not money.

Aw I'm sorry. Crying can be liberating... I try not to due to head aches. Vitamin C and magnesium calm me.

Sadly the world doesn't work like this. It's not about believing in your potential, it's about money. In a way I understand because we need money to buy food. But gambling games went too far, marketting to kids, disguised as a cartoon. It's manipulative.

You didn't drink the SN. Try to publish it yourself for cheap, or a demo for free, and see if the reviews are good. Let players judge your worth.

Maybe try to make a new game that is a compromise between making money & manipulating kids into debt.

I wish you could work for free but you need money to eat too... Perhaps from some ads? I can tolerate ads that give me some coins if I push a button agreeing to see them. Sometimes it's ads for games so it's cool.

How do game creators self publish?

Maybe users can give better feedback to improve your games. But my intuition tells me that they don't appreciate real games anymore. They want abusive cash cows.

Make one with lives that you can either buy or wait hours for free lives to recharge begore they can keep playing? My puzzle games were that way. Annoying but fair punition for failing. And it prevented me from obsessing too long on a hard level.

Make a game that the company want if you seek their approval. But I think we should bypass those jerks and self publish to please players with real good games.

 

[akirat9]

Let players judge your worth.

is really a good idea. is if i judged not worthy ?
i dunno when i will drink sn the the other side of me already die

only gacha game sell have potential is all there is / expected i to try change that but fail
what isa disabled me do ?

 

[Mofreeko]

So the title and OP post that you took it is a lie.

 

[Hollowillow]

is really a good idea. is if i judged not worthy ?
i dunno when i will drink sn the the other side of me already die

only gacha game sell have potential is all there is / expected i to try change that but fail
what isa disabled me do ?

You're disabled but made a game? That's even more amazing.

Reviews are rarely 100% bad. You'll have feedback from players about your good parts & stuff to improve. Instead of just a rejection letter. But they never said it was bad, just not the style they are into. It's like trying to sell a game for children to a pirn company. Sometimes it really just is incompatibility.

If it's your first game, perfection is impossible. Because perfection doesn't exist.

You can ask advice to someone specialized in marketting.

They still sell cigarettes, junk food, toxic drugs that worsen the disease... We know it kills us, but they made us hope for what it's not instead of letting us see what it truly is.

Companies don't care about quality. Just profit. So they lie.

It's sad that real good games are rejected. I hope you'll make it public before you die because I think people should see it. I still crave screen captures?

So the title and OP post that you took it is a lie.

Yeah... I have trust issues & I'm upset about it. I forgave because he's not english... So I gave rhe benefit if the doubt... But not answering for days while we thought he was dead must have been hard for some people

 

[gomenasai]

Safe travels

 

[madebrief]

i not take it
i was waiting for something useless first i turned back at the last minute to see it

View attachment 99062
well today i see and it just made the pain worse. im sorry i not take it then as i say im ashamed i didnt take it then either:(
now i only has 30G of sn left coz i waste other drain
suicide very hard to do no much the impluse

Don't worry, it's normal not to take at the last mins. Do what is right for yourself.

What did you mean when the drink tasted bad? Was it something else?

 

[emgrl]

i not take it
i was waiting for something useless first i turned back at the last minute to see it

View attachment 99062
well today i see and it just made the pain worse. im sorry i not take it then as i say im ashamed i didnt take it then either:(
now i only has 30G of sn left coz i waste other drain
suicide very hard to do no much the impluse

You don't have to apologize to anyone. You didn't even need to make a thread saying you would CTB. Do what you want, when you want. We're definitely all here for you.

 

[akirat9]

right coz i i see it to journey's end. so i not in rush anymore

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do actually feel like I can relate to you. Not with games but I started off in life trying to be a children's Illustrator. It's crushing to get so many rejections- I know. Plus, very hard to not take it personally- as we put so much of ourselves into our work. I'm sorry you have had this experience- especially when you are already feeling so low.

I understand that you probably can't even face the thought of continuing to try. Still, can I ask you- did you research what types of games those companies produce? I could well be wrong here- so- just ignore me if I'm talking rubbish. Still, if it's similar to publishing- it's worth taking some time to research which companies produce what. Sometimes they simply won't consider your work because it isn't their niche of the market.

Afraid I'm massively naive about game design and publication- although I love to play them. I don't suppose there's anything like YouTube for games? Guessing I'm sounding SUPER stupid- I'm sure they take months and months to develop. Just wondered if there are any other outlets to get your stuff out there. If you decide to keep trying, I wish you the very best with it. Oh- and don't feel embarrassed about the failed attempt. It's such a scary thing to do afterall- none of us really know how we'll be when the time comes.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

right coz i i see it to journey's end. so i not in rush anymore

Hope it works out and you find a place for your game. Glad I got the chance to talk to you, since I was thinking about writing to you earlier. Take it easy.

 

[Sourdough]

i'll see you soon on the otherside safe travels

Your profile page thing looks pretty cool

 

[akirat9]

Don't worry, it's normal not to take at the last mins. Do what is right for yourself.

What did you mean when the drink tasted bad? Was it something else?

is sip bad ?

Aw I'm sorry. Crying can be liberating... I try not to due to head aches. Vitamin C and magnesium calm me.

Sadly the world doesn't work like this. It's not about believing in your potential, it's about money. In a way I understand because we need money to buy food. But gambling games went too far, marketting to kids, disguised as a cartoon. It's manipulative.

You didn't drink the SN. Try to publish it yourself for cheap, or a demo for free, and see if the reviews are good. Let players judge your worth.

Maybe try to make a new game that is a compromise between making money & manipulating kids into debt.

I wish you could work for free but you need money to eat too... Perhaps from some ads? I can tolerate ads that give me some coins if I push a button agreeing to see them. Sometimes it's ads for games so it's cool.

How do game creators self publish?

Maybe users can give better feedback to improve your games. But my intuition tells me that they don't appreciate real games anymore. They want abusive cash cows.

Make one with lives that you can either buy or wait hours for free lives to recharge begore they can keep playing? My puzzle games were that way. Annoying but fair punition for failing. And it prevented me from obsessing too long on a hard level.

Make a game that the company want if you seek their approval. But I think we should bypass those jerks and self publish to please players with real good games.

m

You're disabled but made a game? That's even more amazing.

Reviews are rarely 100% bad. You'll have feedback from players about your good parts & stuff to improve. Instead of just a rejection letter. But they never said it was bad, just not the style they are into. It's like trying to sell a game for children to a pirn company. Sometimes it really just is incompatibility.

If it's your first game, perfection is impossible. Because perfection doesn't exist.

You can ask advice to someone specialized in marketting.

They still sell cigarettes, junk food, toxic drugs that worsen the disease... We know it kills us, but they made us hope for what it's not instead of letting us see what it truly is.

Companies don't care about quality. Just profit. So they lie.

It's sad that real good games are rejected. I hope you'll make it public before you die because I think people should see it. I still crave screen captures?

Yeah... I have trust issues & I'm upset about it. I forgave because he's not english... So I gave rhe benefit if the doubt... But not answering for days while we thought he was dead must have been hard for some people

my pixel artist recently finish Maku it time this remind me why i ot drink sn yet.
i say like feel abandoning infant child all alone if i do

is like the publisher as PLAYISM only care as say for gacha game, game wih preimier membership/subscription and mircotransaction/dlc. is not belive in full game will all content in one as in used be
i say coz I think outside of the box they not like, see game / jprg like classic one from old days not see with microtransction, easily mobile sell and lootbox say it not fit their portfolio. so i think maybe best i self publish after all, be time to bring game like chrono for modern day gamers as like jrpgs that have full game content no pay extra no dcl, no micros bla, bla

I do actually feel like I can relate to you. Not with games but I started off in life trying to be a children's Illustrator. It's crushing to get so many rejections- I know. Plus, very hard to not take it personally- as we put so much of ourselves into our work. I'm sorry you have had this experience- especially when you are already feeling so low.

I understand that you probably can't even face the thought of continuing to try. Still, can I ask you- did you research what types of games those companies produce? I could well be wrong here- so- just ignore me if I'm talking rubbish. Still, if it's similar to publishing- it's worth taking some time to research which companies produce what. Sometimes they simply won't consider your work because it isn't their niche of the market.

Afraid I'm massively naive about game design and publication- although I love to play them. I don't suppose there's anything like YouTube for games? Guessing I'm sounding SUPER stupid- I'm sure they take months and months to develop. Just wondered if there are any other outlets to get your stuff out there. If you decide to keep trying, I wish you the very best with it. Oh- and don't feel embarrassed about the failed attempt. It's such a scary thing to do afterall- none of us really know how we'll be when the time comes.

i face continuing try .. because is so much already done that it feel like leave before it grow; give long adventure story to players to immerse in as games used to. i want more players to experience more that story/lore. my philosophy like sakaguchi-san

no sound silly is right take long time to develop
say niche yes very because so much change in gaming even with jrpg, is many become ajrpg so to see classic turn based variation is niche but i care more for growing community and than money from

 

[akirat9]

just failure after failure
i've had enough fighting the impossible
i tired, worn out, exhausted succubing to the term 'hope'
is just enough
thought about putting this soruce code and drop it somewhere someone else with prilviage can do what want and release it but dunno is pretty lame it just eed die with me, not worthy of being seen
bla, bla same rehearsal nothing new

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I hope you feel better soon. Maybe you could use a break? I think someone would appreciate your source code if you've had enough, you can always upload it with a sympathetic story or message attached, can even be in the comments of the code. I'm one of the people that always appreciates generosity anyway.

 

[akirat9]

I hope you feel better soon. Maybe you could use a break? I think someone would appreciate your source code if you've had enough, you can always upload it with a sympathetic story or message attached, can even be in the comments of the code. I'm one of the people that always appreciates generosity anyway.

i started compiling in archive, created github but could not do
im in too much mental agony to even look at, coz it hurt coz i it