Venting I’ve realized i dont have the potential to ever have a relationship,platonic or romantic, with anyone.

[Lou_Charthethird]

I see so many people talk about how they lost one of their many friends or their romantic partner broke up with them or that one of their estranged family members is a bad person, and it breaks my heart knowing i would never even get that far. I never had the opportunity to make friends with anyone because i was sheltered from the world in a Ultra religious community. Not only do i have no friends or people i can trust, but living like this for as long as i did has ruined my ability to socialize with normal people. I barely can come to terms with myself and who i am because ivelost my sense of identity, much less do i have the ability ti show off an identity for someone to find attractive as a friend. I am doomed to be alone for the rest of my life. I wish i was in a position where i could even have one fucking person. I cant even feel as doomed as this should make me bec of this damn derealization. Im sorry if this is rambly, point is, i wish i was born normal maybe none of this wouldve happened .

 

[Passenger4224]

This post related to me ... I'm sorry :(

 

[violetforever]

i relate and i want to say the combination of sheltering with strict religion is literally a form of abuse to me. when it leads to undeveloped social skills and loss of identity which are necessary to function, that feels abusive. my family ruined me with that along with other things for so long. are u away from that community now?