Help Ive noticed something....

[n031]

If u are in this forum you probably want to die. Me too, I dont want to live like this. But there is a part of me that wants to stay. That means there is a conflict inside me and needs to be solved. The thing is, the part of me thats wants to cease existence must die, but that doesnt mean every part of me has to, thats not fair. I want to live. Im trying to get rid of it so it can die and I can keep going. This bitch is manipulative asf and wants to end it so bad, but Im not part of that. I can comfront it. And the more I comfront that voice the less power it gets and some day it will leave me. Ive started to give the weak voice in me who wants to live more space and I can feel some parts of my brain waking up. I was living as a slave of my emotions, Im empty, sad and hurting since childhood. Im 26 now and my therapist said that is not too late for structural changes in my primitive undeveloped and traumatized brain. Its gonna be hard but I can start feeling changes inside me. This is just my opinion and my experience. Maybe some can relate. Take care yall

 

[Redacted24]

That's a really powerful posting. Thank you for sharing...
I read somewhere to end one's life doesn't necessarily mean to become dead. One can remake your life, away from that abusive partner, that awful job, the surroundings and people in your area.
It might not be better with the new place/ job/ whatever but it's worth a try, right?
After all, you can always end your physical life another time, right?
Best wishes to you and wishing you the continued power!

 

[hopelesswanderer]

Wishing you the best on this journey Glad to hear you are finding hope.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Relatable. I also wish that I could stay. But I think I may be too messed up unfortunately. My doctors have even told me that I will probably not get better and will simply have to learn to live with these feelings. I don't know how long I can do that, especially considering how empty my life is.

But I do wish that I had a reason to keep trying.

 

[hematomatema]

Relatable. I also wish that I could stay. But I think I may be too messed up unfortunately. My doctors have even told me that I will probably not get better and will simply have to learn to live with these feelings. I don't know how long I can do that, especially considering how empty my life is.

But I do wish that I had a reason to keep trying.

Real except no doctors have told me that, it's just a gut feeling. I think that there are some people where it really is just hopeless, at least in this century, for them to get better. The technology for the free alteration of something as unbelievably complex and mysterious as the brain just isn't there yet to be able to say that any person can be saved from themselves.