ive been a weird loser my entire life

[miserywonderland]

what the title says

its always been like there's a glass wall between me and everyone else. ive always been quiet and shy. i never drank or smoke or had a 'normal' teenage experience. never had any friends after being like 8. always just been a loser. every attempt to try to get people to like me has failed. i give up.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

It's better to be authentic than to be fake so people can like you. I know some people who are best "friends" with those who at any given chance when they turned their back they would speak so much shit about them and call them all sorts of names and some of his so called friends will chat shit and bad about him when he wasn't around .

Would you want to have those type of people around that they will be so quick to throw you under the bus at any given chance than be by yourself and actually enjoy your own company.

I do actually enjoy my own company that's why I used to turn down some women I were friends with when they always asked me and wanted to hang out with me because I have never been desperate for friends and I don't cling to friends like my life depends on it.

I know of a tap dancer and he does everything and try to convince those that will call him a monkey to like him. Imagine living that kind of life? He has to make people like him by lying and manipulating others. His job is to be a monitoring hateful sprit over someone who doesn't give a damn about him.

Look at this message messaging me at 4am and i paid him dust and he had to send me another one complaining how I had ignore him and I had to respond out of pity because he is like a leech and a "beg a friend" who won't stop until you respond. When a man has to make songs with his failed music career about "fake friends" you have to realise how he is desperate to be accepted and wanted as a "friend".

Praying for that little man .

When someone has to message you at 4am whilst you are sleeping reminiscing about a past "friendship" and when I rejected the invite they had to start coming after me I guess.

Praying for a tap dancer to those white people he used to warn me against and also he called the biggest snitches in the world .

 

[usernamesarehard]

My life has been pretty similar to yours.

what the title says

its always been like there's a glass wall between me and everyone else. ive always been quiet and shy.

I used to be outgoing as a kid, but now I'm fairly quiet and that stops me from forming relationships with people.

i never drank or smoke or had a 'normal' teenage experience.

Me neither. No dating, no drinking, no partying. I feel like I missed a crucial stage for development.

never had any friends after being like 8. always just been a loser. every attempt to try to get people to like me has failed. i give up.

Weirdly enough people seem to like me (like coworkers), but I still can't make any friends. I associate and talk to a lot of people, but the only one I consider a friend is my best friend from highschool.

It sucks not having any friends or romantic relationships. I found one person willing to date me and they fell out of love with me. I doubt I'll be in another relationship again and even if I manage to get into another one somehow, I know they'll leave me because I'm not good enough.

 

[k1m]

I know it feels like you're alone but a LOT of people can relate to this. Society has been changing in a way that makes us all feel way more alone than before. Your experience is super common among the ppl I've talked to.

 

[Alexandra_]

I'm sorry you're going through such heartache. I'm a loser on all counts too. I only had friends when I was a kid

 

[UnusedGate]

Another loser checking in here. Just thinking about all the fun that people my age are having really makes me depressed. Going out, talking with friends, getting into relationships. Really hope I can ctb soon.

 

[Vlad Tepes]

Are you me? Lol. Fellow loser. Severe autism and dirt-poor parents who are literally insane is not a great combination.

I guess when I was younger, I spent a whole lot of time trying to not be a loser, and trying to "put myself out there" (people saying that dumbass phrase unironically makes my blood boil) and in general just doing what I thought made me look cool, as well as being a complete sycophant who was willing to let people disrespect and insult me because I (1) was a little bitch and (2) was so desperate for friends that I wanted anybody to talk to me. Well, that didn't lead anywhere. It just led to me getting bullied even more, because now I was not only obviously a complete weirdo, I was also being a weirdo in everybody's face. So in the end, I sure as shit had neither friends nor self-respect. Eventually I grew a backbone and started living for myself, so I sure as shit dont have any friends now either, but at least I have some self-respect. I dont regret dropping out of school at 16 at all. Not like I got shit to live for. I was born in a coffin anyway. I regret nothing. My life was over before it even began.

Another loser checking in here. Just thinking about all the fun that people my age are having really makes me depressed. Going out, talking with friends, getting into relationships. Really hope I can ctb soon.

A lot of shit that normal people get to experience is stuff that I legit thought was just out of movies or something because my life is just that dogshit lmao. Like my life is so miserable that I genuinely did not even know that normal families eat dinner together, because my parents can't even be in the same room together without getting into a fistfight. I had no social life whatsoever as a kid (dont have one now either but you get the point) and spent all my time on the internet and playing video games (still do, but you get the point), so its not like I had any friends from whom I could infer what a normal life is like.