I've always been an idiot

[SadGirl]

I've been dating for almost four years. In short, she helps me a lot financially, with college, medication, and even drugs. Anyway, because I have ADHD, I can't find a stable job. Right now, I'm selling chocolates on the street, and yes, she bought 50 of them for me to resell, but I'm a bit addicted to cocaine. She knows I use with a friend, but she doesn't know I'm using frequently, and this is causing financial harm. Besides, I owe her about 12,000. I always say I'll change, but I can't control my impulses. She would never understand, even though she has disorders too. She doesn't have a steady job, so that makes it more difficult. I ate some of the chocolates she bought for me to sell, and I don't have the income to pay for them. I'm an idiot. She says she's getting tired of it, and I understand. I just don't want her to break up with me. What do I do? (Regarding cocaine, I think I can handle it on my own without rehab).

 

[fedup1982]

Priority 1 should be getting off cocaine. If you can do it by yourself quickly, great. But just in case, I'd go to drug counselling sessions even if you don't go to rehab so you'll have some tools to stay clean. Especially since you have ADHD, you're going to have life long impulses to use drugs so you're going to need all the help you can get, NGL

 

[bankai]

Isn't cocaine like one of the most expensive drugs? You definitely need to stop that.

If you are having trouble being employed at somewhere else because of ADHD. Then the stuff like selling chocolates is definitely a good idea. Since you're essentially doing it on your own. That way there won't be any conflict or any micromanagement by anyone else.

Regarding the relationship, you're going to have to change abruptly. Sorry if this seems harsh, but yeah, there will be a point of no return. So before that comes, you're going to have to maybe apologise and change, but hold true to your word.