It’s Tomorrow

[Nightwillalwayswin]

Tomorrow is my day and so I guess this is goodbye. I am not a hugely active user but have a deep compassion for everyone on here.

I have had SN and everything else needed for years now, except meto. I obtained meto this week which tells me I am serious about this.

I could technically do it today but someone broke my heart so much today, I am currently reeling so need to make sure it's not an emotional impulse.

I know some people are generally not interested in living. I am not one of those people- I wanted to live so much. I wanted to fall in love and get married and have children. It just wasn't to be.

People are so unjustifiably and unexplainably cruel. Why? People have done such awful things to me. Maybe I am worthless.

I know I've offended people on here at least once so I want to say sorry. I am so hurt and angry all the time that it leaks out sometimes and makes me impatient. I don't like that about myself but I guess I don't have to worry about it much longer.

Please don't tell me I don't have to do this. I know it is well meaning but even now I can hear 'hope' telling me lies. I need to focus.

I will update when I start the stat dose.

 

[dyingalone123]

I agree with you - I had the will to live - I wanted to live so much like you did! I wanted to fall in and love and get married - I was about to this year before my illness took over. He left me like a sack of rocks.

I wish the best in your journey. May you have peace and rest.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I'm so sorry that both of you, @Nightwillalwayswin and @dyingalone123, are experiencing so much pain and find it impossible to go on. I don't know your stories, but I wish both of you didn't have to feel like ctb is your only way out, but I can absolutely relate. It's very painful to realize that there are people out there, who want to live and are trying so hard, but still feel like they have to leave. I'm really sorry the world and society have failed you, guys.

Tomorrow is my day and so I guess this is goodbye. I am not a hugely active user but have a deep compassion for everyone on here.

I have had SN and everything else needed for years now, except meto. I obtained meto this week which tells me I am serious about this.

I could technically do it today but someone broke my heart so much today, I am currently reeling so need to make sure it's not an emotional impulse.

I know some people are generally not interested in living. I am not one of those people- I wanted to live so much. I wanted to fall in love and get married and have children. It just wasn't to be.

People are so unjustifiably and unexplainably cruel. Why? People have done such awful things to me. Maybe I am worthless.

I know I've offended people on here at least once so I want to say sorry. I am so hurt and angry all the time that it leaks out sometimes and makes me impatient. I don't like that about myself but I guess I don't have to worry about it much longer.

Please don't tell me I don't have to do this. I know it is well meaning but even now I can hear 'hope' telling me lies. I need to focus.

I will update when I start the stat dose.

Safe travels and peaceful journey.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. People really are so cruel. Life is just so depressing. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[meetapple]

I hope you find everlasting peace.

 

[aminend]

I wish u luck.

 

[ClownMe]

I hope you find the peace that you're looking for.

 

[AntHydra]

I wanted to live too. I wanted to get rid of my perceptions and my pains and my apathy, work through my many issues, I wanted to become soft and loving and treat people as well as I possibly could.
But it doesn't work out for us sometimes. And the tender hands we reach out with get cut off.
It's alright to have lashed out in the wake of so much helplessness to follow even our most innocent desires.

Safe travels on the roads you are yet walking. I hope the agony washes away in the end and you can find bliss in your decision.

 

[neitherherenorthere]

I am currently reeling so need to make sure it's not an emotional impulse.

This is an amazingly measured and responsible way to go about things, considering where you're at mentally and emotionally. I think this says a lot (in a positive way) about you as a person. I'm sorry life has been so cruel to you in denying you the things you want. You clearly deserve better. I hope you find the peace you seek.

 

[Nightwillalwayswin]

I have taken everything now except the SN.

 

[sadpinky]

I wish you the best, I'm on the fence today but I just ate. I keep eating when I feel like doing it. My si is too high

 

[fox_wannabe]

Be at peace my friend. I do not know you but I know what you feel. Life is tough, may you rest after It and forever.

 

[HabitualRain86]

have a safe journey, my friend. This is a cruel world, and only a few will appreciate the bravery it takes to start this process. I can only hope that I can find the same courage; I will see you on the other side.

 

[coffee]

I have taken everything now except the SN.

Hope that it's peaceful. I'm going to ctb soon as well.

 

[Quinlor]

Tomorrow is my day and so I guess this is goodbye. I am not a hugely active user but have a deep compassion for everyone on here.

I have had SN and everything else needed for years now, except meto. I obtained meto this week which tells me I am serious about this.

I could technically do it today but someone broke my heart so much today, I am currently reeling so need to make sure it's not an emotional impulse.

I know some people are generally not interested in living. I am not one of those people- I wanted to live so much. I wanted to fall in love and get married and have children. It just wasn't to be.

People are so unjustifiably and unexplainably cruel. Why? People have done such awful things to me. Maybe I am worthless.

I know I've offended people on here at least once so I want to say sorry. I am so hurt and angry all the time that it leaks out sometimes and makes me impatient. I don't like that about myself but I guess I don't have to worry about it much longer.

Please don't tell me I don't have to do this. I know it is well meaning but even now I can hear 'hope' telling me lies. I need to focus.

I will update when I start the stat dose.

Man you want that we encourage you? C'mon you must decide by yourself about your life right? the unique think I can do is say to you good lucky!

 

[Kennish]

I hope you find peace, and safe travels

 

[logan]

I don't know your story - but obviously a lot of suffering has been inflicted on you.

Since you actually want to live and wish for a partnership and a family, please reconsider the whole thing.

Sensitive, good-natured people are often taken advantage of.
Perhaps you have simply surrounded yourself with the wrong people.
You can still change that.

 

[sadpinky]

Are you still with us?

 

[ikadasui]

Over and out, friend. Safe journey

 

[bed]

safe travels

 

[Crazy4u]

Are you still there?

 

[clown_17]

I wish you peace

 

[hanax.]

good luck on your journey, mate. you probably wouldn't be able to see this message but i wish you everlasting peace in wherever you are at rn. will ctb, too. hopefully, soon

 

[ChaseBees]

Sending you safe thoughts