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I’m Beth. I’m just done.
- Aug 6, 2023
- 11
I was told to share this here. I don't know the correct place to post I guess. I'm sorry.
I have my plan set. 08/23/23 I'll be with my boys again. I'm going camping. I'm only bringing a few things…my small tent, extra tarps (just in case), my small charcoal grill (plus all needed supplies), and most importantly my freshly filled prescription of Clonazepam 20mg. Either the burning charcoal (after the flame goes out) moved into the tent with me or a fresh supply of my medication all at once, one or both will finish the job. Plus, I've found the perfect spot where nobody will find me, not for a long time at least. Too late to do anything to change what's done for sure. I'm not doing this out of sadness. Quite the opposite actually. I'm excited. I'll be back with my boys on the anniversary of losing them. That's all I've ever wanted, it's my fate.
To the ones still contemplating CTB, please weigh out all of options and be 100% sure that you're not taking a permanent step for a temporary problem. With that being said…I am and have always been completely pro choice, with life AND death. Only you will truly know if it's right for you and/or your situation. Just don't rush, plan it, do it right so it's the only time you'll have to feel it (mentally and physically). I wish everyone the strength to know who you are and what you're meant to do. I pray that you all prosper on whichever path you choose.
I have my plan set. 08/23/23 I'll be with my boys again. I'm going camping. I'm only bringing a few things…my small tent, extra tarps (just in case), my small charcoal grill (plus all needed supplies), and most importantly my freshly filled prescription of Clonazepam 20mg. Either the burning charcoal (after the flame goes out) moved into the tent with me or a fresh supply of my medication all at once, one or both will finish the job. Plus, I've found the perfect spot where nobody will find me, not for a long time at least. Too late to do anything to change what's done for sure. I'm not doing this out of sadness. Quite the opposite actually. I'm excited. I'll be back with my boys on the anniversary of losing them. That's all I've ever wanted, it's my fate.
To the ones still contemplating CTB, please weigh out all of options and be 100% sure that you're not taking a permanent step for a temporary problem. With that being said…I am and have always been completely pro choice, with life AND death. Only you will truly know if it's right for you and/or your situation. Just don't rush, plan it, do it right so it's the only time you'll have to feel it (mentally and physically). I wish everyone the strength to know who you are and what you're meant to do. I pray that you all prosper on whichever path you choose.