It's the little things

[ChiseHatori]

It's my birthday tomorrow and I wanted to maybe go out and enjoy it (my last five birthdays or so have been kinda miserable) but people cancelled on me last minute. It always happens because my birthday is during the holidays. I would move the whole thing but I honestly just feel kinda angry now - like I get it if you can't come but I wish it could be said a little earlier... I'm also weird and like to do things on the day, doing it later feels odd but I know that's more of a me issue.

I might do something small just for me but I dunno... I seriously want to CTB out of malice sometimes and I hate that about myself and I know it's wrong but I hate how narcissistic that makes me feel but that's just how it is. I want those that hurt me in the past to feel an ounce of my pain and I want those who left me alone to feel bad. But I probably won't do it right now.

Thinking of using the 'night night' method if it comes to that point for me though, I'm just so tired and lonely.

 

[Redacted24]

I'm sorry your special day is bringing anguish. You should definitely do something nice for yourself, regardless (and in spite of) of those who let you down.
I'll bend an elbow tomorrow to celebrate you! Cheers!

 

[Lynx.]

Being alone and let down on your birthday truly sucks a lot. I hope you find a way to make tomorrow a little better - I'm sorry it turned out like this in the end.

Also, I like your username. The Ancient Magus Bride is really amazing

Have a nice birthday tomorrow, with or without others alongside you...

 

[huggyob]

i wish you a happy bday and the best wishes for any of your future desires, i truly wish i could celebrate it there with you as i myself am self aware of the fragility of those around us and how much any sort of minor composure can and will warm our inner soul.