it’s happening!!!!

[murderousvixen]

so today a friend of mine found something out about me that changed his whole perception of me. he hates me. and he's dragging my name through the mud!!! so i'm faking an attempt!! it's a real attempt but one i know will ultimately not kill me. just some hydroxyzine and maybe i'll throw in some vodka to make it believable. they will not be strong enough to kill me. i'll send him the first text after the pills are ingested. pleading a guilty heart and a mind that couldn't bare that weight anymore. i'll tell him i hope he can forgive me. next i'll send a text to a friend. i need one as crazy as i am to tell to him what is wrong with you *my name* is in the hospital because of you. then the guilt settles in. UGH im so excited!!!! i've always wanted to attempt an attempt that i know wouldn't kill me and this is such a perfect excuse for it!!! wish me luck!!!

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Bad idea. Bad idea. Bad idea. Do not do this. Both for the sake of your health and of your relationships.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It may end up getting you committed. Hope you're ready for that. Good luck (not an endorsement for what you're doing).

 

[murderousvixen]

Bad idea. Bad idea. Bad idea. Do not do this. Both for the sake of your health and of your relationships.

my dosage is low (only around 500 mg) it'll fuck me over for maybe a week or so. i've taken into account that my friends will likely be pissed at me. i'll make a serious attempt after that if i need to. honestly i'm so tired and have reverted back to such a low point that i lowk! don't care! but i'm willing to listen if you have any other words as to why i shouldn't. i know them but i haven't had anyone to talk to about this. im highly emotional and just want to disappear for a bit

It may end up getting you committed. Hope you're ready for that. Good luck (not an endorsement for what you're doing).

i've mentally set aside about two weeks in a ward. i will be compliant the whole time. not an active risk.

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

Weird call for attention. Talking with him is probably going to get you much further.

 

[pleasexbexover]

fyi unless youve od'ed on it prior and already know

its not going to do shit but cause gi distress, heart palpitations, and depending on the amount you take, it might counteract with itse;f and keep you from getting any kind of sleep at all. from someone who is ecently been prescribed it again after attempted overdose on it years ago (also with alcohol)
but do as you wish( i do not condone this)

edit also be (potentially) prepared for a panic attack



this part

Weird call for attention. Talking with him is probably going to get you much further.

 

[DoomedDarkCircles]

dude, i guess this is a bad idea

 

[murderousvixen]

Weird call for attention. Talking with him is probably going to get you much further.

oh boy i've tried. he's shut down entirely. he's not responding to anyone anymore. it def is a weird call for attention but i really don't know what else to do. i just want him to shut up about me and my friend. i didn't explain everything that happened but it's not just this specific situation that's led me to want to do this. lots of shit. but i feel like this was my last straw.

 

[botanormal]

I know you're probably feeling incredibly overwhelmed & desperate right now. I don't know your exact situation, but dealing with somebody insulting your name to other people is a horrible feeling outright, and I'm sorry that you're experiencing it, especially from a friend. But I really think you should pause & think about your reasons for doing this. Is it because you want him to feel bad for his actions? Because if so, I don't know if it would go exactly the way you'd hoped. I've overdosed in the past because of the ways people have treated me, and when those people found out, they did not really care in the slightest - even when they were my friends previously. If somebody wants to hurt you, they might not have the empathy you'd wish they did. Ultimately, you're hurting yourself by doing this. You're going to be in a lot of pain, and what comes afterwards might feel even worse than expected. You might be sent to a mental hospital, or things might escalate within your friend group, or you may become incredibly sick. If you want to get his attention because you want to be understood (which is completely valid by the way), perhaps you could give it a little time before reaching out again, see if he calms down? If he's being nasty about you right now, you shouldn't really have to deal with that to begin with. Even perhaps mentioning to him you're feeling incredibly suicidal over it & need to talk could be enough to trigger a response from him, even without going through with it. And I do hope you have other friends to lean on throughout this. Ultimately, it is your decision, but I really wouldn't want for anybody to go through the pain of an overdose if there were other ways. Please be safe

 

[Tumblewillow]

I really understand the need to act when you feel a situation is beyond repair. It is possible that he is just reacting in shock and is overwhelmed by emotion.

What if he just needs time and it can all be sorted out when you've all had time to think about it?

If you do this, you are making possibly the biggest mistake of your life. It will not hurt him in the way you think it will, nor will it make him understand you.

 

[FishRain3469]

I'll repeat what some have already said.... Please don't do this, it's just not worth it.

 

[yeaimhere13]

this is a really bad idea but i understand why u feel the need to go such great lengths. please update soon

 

[timetogo00]

so today a friend of mine found something out about me that changed his whole perception of me. he hates me. and he's dragging my name through the mud!!! so i'm faking an attempt!! it's a real attempt but one i know will ultimately not kill me. just some hydroxyzine and maybe i'll throw in some vodka to make it believable. they will not be strong enough to kill me. i'll send him the first text after the pills are ingested. pleading a guilty heart and a mind that couldn't bare that weight anymore. i'll tell him i hope he can forgive me. next i'll send a text to a friend. i need one as crazy as i am to tell to him what is wrong with you *my name* is in the hospital because of you. then the guilt settles in. UGH im so excited!!!! i've always wanted to attempt an attempt that i know wouldn't kill me and this is such a perfect excuse for it!!! wish me luck!!!

Ppeople come and go. Even high school bullies lose their hair and looks.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

This is an example of emotional blackmail and why legitimately suicidal people are often treated as subhuman. Totally abusive behavior and an abuse to this community to expect it to be encouraged in any way.

 

[Worndown]

Isn't it easier and more direct to call him out as the asshole he proved to be?
All your joint associates should know how trustworthy and loyal he really is.
Some day it will be them facing his words.

 

[Sunshine]

so today a friend of mine found something out about me that changed his whole perception of me. he hates me. and he's dragging my name through the mud!!! so i'm faking an attempt!! it's a real attempt but one i know will ultimately not kill me. just some hydroxyzine and maybe i'll throw in some vodka to make it believable. they will not be strong enough to kill me. i'll send him the first text after the pills are ingested. pleading a guilty heart and a mind that couldn't bare that weight anymore. i'll tell him i hope he can forgive me. next i'll send a text to a friend. i need one as crazy as i am to tell to him what is wrong with you *my name* is in the hospital because of you. then the guilt settles in. UGH im so excited!!!! i've always wanted to attempt an attempt that i know wouldn't kill me and this is such a perfect excuse for it!!! wish me luck!!!

You're not going to achieve anything with that besides people thinking of you as more annoying than they already did, if this person already hates you.
You will be perceived as drama queen and manipulator (using suicidal actions to get a specific outcome) and the latter would be true even.

Just forget about these people. Cut them off like a tumor and keep it moving.

 

[bankai]

i need one as crazy as i am to tell to him what is wrong with you *my name* is in the hospital because of you. then the guilt settles in. UGH im so excited!!!! i've always wanted to attempt an attempt that i know wouldn't kill me and this is such a perfect excuse for it!!! wish me luck!!!

1st I felt bad. But your post seems almost joyous.

This does seem like an extreme plan though. Please be careful.

 

[Galahad]

so today a friend of mine found something out about me that changed his whole perception of me. he hates me. and he's dragging my name through the mud!!! so i'm faking an attempt!! it's a real attempt but one i know will ultimately not kill me. just some hydroxyzine and maybe i'll throw in some vodka to make it believable. they will not be strong enough to kill me. i'll send him the first text after the pills are ingested. pleading a guilty heart and a mind that couldn't bare that weight anymore. i'll tell him i hope he can forgive me. next i'll send a text to a friend. i need one as crazy as i am to tell to him what is wrong with you *my name* is in the hospital because of you. then the guilt settles in. UGH im so excited!!!! i've always wanted to attempt an attempt that i know wouldn't kill me and this is such a perfect excuse for it!!! wish me luck!!!

I can't agree with this. You won't get any support for a staged and fake cry for help.

All genuinely suicidal people are in that place due to their mental and sometimes physical health. It's not something to be weaponised.

For the sake of every genuinely suicidal person please don't do this.

 

[Apathy79]

Yeah I can't see this as helping in any way. It just proves him right if anything, even if he wasn't before. This sort of thing is why genuinely suicidal people don't get taken seriously.