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radical blue

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Nov 20, 2022
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Things have turned for the worse and I've decided to CTB tonight. I have SN that's about it I didn't have the time to grab my metro from home. I will be making 3 glasses with 25 grams each and with every vomiting will drink a spare glass. I haven't eaten in 10 hours. I brought my scale with me to measure proper amounts. Not nervous I actually feel very calm. I don't think SI will stop me at this point. I wish to reach the peace I deserve.
 
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sadToast

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Apr 25, 2023
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I hope you can reach peace and have a smooth ride <3
 
NearlyIrrelevantCake

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Godspeed.
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
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Glad your feeling calm. I think that's the most reassuring thing when deciding it's time. Extra glasses I see as being very hard to keep down just a warning. Can i ask does this have anything to do with the police ic bs? I hope you find peace what ever you do.
 
warriorofeld

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Mar 22, 2023
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Wishing nothing but success and peace in your journey and I can relate to your post
 
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radical blue

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I have a total of 100 g SN I have placed them in 4 cups of 25 g each. About to measure the water now. I'm in a hotel room I booked 2 nights and told them I don't need housekeeping. No relation to the police visits. I have been planning extensively but have been surviving hoping things will get better. Thanks for your well wishes I will document everything for as long as I am able to.
I have dissolved the SN in 50 ml water each. It looks very thick. Will be placing them next to me on the bed. I've written 2 short notes to family.
I have drank glass 1. Salty as fuck. I hope I won't need to drink anymore.
I have a total of 100 g SN I have placed them in 4 cups of 25 g each. About to measure the water now. I'm in a hotel room I booked 2 nights and told them I don't need housekeeping. No relation to the police visits. I have been planning extensively but have been surviving hoping things will get better. Thanks for your well wishes I will document everything for as long as I am able to.
I have dissolved the SN in 50 ml water each. It looks very thick. Will be placing them next to me on the bed. I've written 2 short notes to family.
I have drank glass 1. Salty as fuck. I hope I won't need to drink anymore.
I can't figure out how to add comments under my replies. Very sour stomach now. No nausea or vomiting. Counting down to 4 hours until CTB.
 
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I have a total of 100 g SN I have placed them in 4 cups of 25 g each. About to measure the water now. I'm in a hotel room I booked 2 nights and told them I don't need housekeeping. No relation to the police visits. I have been planning extensively but have been surviving hoping things will get better. Thanks for your well wishes I will document everything for as long as I am able to.
I have dissolved the SN in 50 ml water each. It looks very thick. Will be placing them next to me on the bed. I've written 2 short notes to family.
I have drank glass 1. Salty as fuck. I hope I won't need to drink anymore.

I can't figure out how to add comments under my replies. Very sour stomach now. No nausea or vomiting. Counting down to 4 hours until CTB.
Sleep well.
 
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dimstar

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Will be thinking of you. Safe travels
 
LateForTheBus

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Feb 7, 2023
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I hope you have a smooth ride and find the peace you are seeking.
 
fallenangel444

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Apr 2, 2023
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thinking of you :happy: i hope you find peace
 
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Wishing you peace and love. Rest well. :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart:
 
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Letgo

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Apr 1, 2023
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I wish you a peaceful journey. You are being thought of.
 
moonlightstairway

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Apr 27, 2023
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You've been strong. I hope you reach the peace that you deserve!
 
Jezzibell

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Apr 21, 2023
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Move peacefully into the dark. Xxxx
 
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Feb 7, 2023
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Bon voyage - I wish you peace 💙💛
 
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Apr 3, 2023
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Rest in peace I hope u find everything u couldn't in this life. ❤️
 
FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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Goodbye, I hope you find the peace and freedom from the hell that is existing.
 
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Das Nichts

Das Nichts

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Apr 8, 2023
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I hope that everything will work out as planned and that you will find your peace.
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
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Things have turned for the worse and I've decided to CTB tonight. I have SN that's about it I didn't have the time to grab my metro from home. I will be making 3 glasses with 25 grams each and with every vomiting will drink a spare glass. I haven't eaten in 10 hours. I brought my scale with me to measure proper amounts. Not nervous I actually feel very calm. I don't think SI will stop me at this point. I wish to reach the peace I deserve.
I may join you, your not using anything else? Will you post your results?
Good luck? Any updates?
 
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SoftWorries

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Feb 22, 2023
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I'd suggest leaving a note beside the door for whoever opens it to notify of your death and to call the police instead of coming in. I'd also suggest if possible creating a barricade (possibly with a sheet and thumbtacks) to prevent from being seen by hotel staff and minimize the mental impact on the people involved. If you'll be in the bathroom I suggest locking the door and leaving a note outside.

Be comfortable. Take care ❤️
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
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So he just drank SN,but do we know it worked?
 
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just_so_done

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Apr 16, 2023
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I hope you found the peace you were looking for
 
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Ahnaf

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Apr 29, 2023
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Things have turned for the worse and I've decided to CTB tonight. I have SN that's about it I didn't have the time to grab my metro from home. I will be making 3 glasses with 25 grams each and with every vomiting will drink a spare glass. I haven't eaten in 10 hours. I brought my scale with me to measure proper amounts. Not nervous I actually feel very calm. I don't think SI will stop me at this point. I wish to reach the peace I deserve.
Feel free to do what you want but remember it's always better to live in the light than the dark and I hope you change your mind and decide to give life another chance, if you do please contact help and if you need a friend, I am always there, try your best to live if you can though I wont force you
 

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