Venting It's getting worse and worse everyday, and I can see my death every time I look in the mirror.

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

Everytime I look in the mirror, I can see my face, dead, hanging by the rope. I know it will eventually come to pass. I bend my head, bulge my eyes, and open mouth. I stare at that reflection, and I'm scared cuz I know this is the only way out for me.

It's worse at the gym, cuz there are mirrors everywhere. Whenever I do hanging exercises, I always think how similar this is to the real thing.

We use this small stool to get hold of the higher bars. These days I've been pretending that I'm roping, and I take one step into mid-air, then another, and I always think 'This is how it's going to be'

I still can't believe that it is really over for me.

 

[Symbiote]

Because of the girl you had a crush on or many other things in your life?

 

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

Because of the girl you had a crush on or many other things in your life?

The girl was the final nail in the coffin.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

The girl was the final nail in the coffin.

We're in very similar situations. I'm struggling to not "hang in there", as well. When no major life area goes well a lot is needed to not be suicidal.

 

[Symbiote]

The girl was the final nail in the coffin.

I'm sorry to hear about that. I know the feeling as well, when everywhere you look, any object becomes a suicide method.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

when everywhere you look, any object becomes a suicide method.

These bastards always get my mind running:

 

[Symbiote]

These bastards always get my mind running:

If Riddick can kill a man with a metal cup or John Wick can kill three people with a pencil, you can kill yourself with a beverage coaster.