It's funny and sad

[Icarus]

It's funny and sad how ones life can change so fast. I'm turning 30 today. Exactly a year ago I was planning my future move to Utah and it was coming along really well. I had dreams and aspirations, things I wanted to do with my life. A year later it all died, got crushed amd shattered. Now I'm planning my suicide this summer. Got all the supplies.

It's funny and sad

 

[Deleted member 1465]

It is a tragic comedy of life indeed.

What happened? What brought you here?

 

[Thereisnothing]

It sure is. My life ended/shattered within seconds............never seen it coming.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I find it kinda funny, find it kinda sad, the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had. Title reminded me of that song.

 

[Time]

Happy Birthday, Icarus. Sorry to hear about your situation. I'm sending you lots of love & hugs.

 

[randomz]

It's funny and sad how ones life can change so fast. I'm turning 30 today. Exactly a year ago I was planning my future move to Utah and it was coming along really well. I had dreams and aspirations, things I wanted to do with my life. A year later it all died, got crushed amd shattered. Now I'm planning my suicide this summer. Got all the supplies.

It's funny and sad

I am sorry for how everything shattered for you. Maybe there is still time to make other plans for the future?

 

[140 bpm]

Totally feel you dude...exactly year ago I moved to east coast, started relashionships with new girl, job was great, income like I never had, traveled a lot and thought that finally I'm happy... but :

A year later it all died, got crushed amd shattered. Now I'm planning my suicide this summer.

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[Ghost2211]

Mhmm, wild how quickly things can shift.

 

[Icarus]

@Underscore I messed up my life. Been smoking pot for way too long. Turnes into self-absorbed arrogant, selfish cunt. Lost love of my life because of my immaturity and fear of my feelings.

 

[Icarus]

Happy Birthday, Icarus. Sorry to hear about your situation. I'm sending you lots of love & hugs.

Thank you @Time. How are you doing?

I am sorry for how everything shattered for you. Maybe there is still time to make other plans for the future?

@randomz There's no need to be sorry. I'm responsible for fucking up my own life. Now I'm pushing as long as I can not to fuck up my family's life.

 

[mesohappy]

Life can be a real fucked up rollercoaster ride-Same things that will make you laugh will make you cry...Knowing you played a hand in your own demise- makes it feel that much more fucked up inside.(speaking from experience).

 

[Icarus]

Life can be a real fucked up rollercoaster ride-Same things that will make you laugh will make you cry...Knowing you played a hand in your own demise- makes it feel that much more fucked up inside.(speaking from experience).

@mesohappy, yes, 100%. There are moments I wish I could blame somebody, but when you point a finger at somebody, four fingers point back at you.

 

[Time]

Thank you @Time. How are you doing?

@randomz There's no need to be sorry. I'm responsible for fucking up my own life. Now I'm pushing as long as I can not to fuck up my family's life.

You're welcome.

I'm doing okay. Still here, SLOWLY trying to get everything together for my exit. How are you doing? I hope @ least a little bit better since you've started this post.

 

[faust]

I know it is very easy to ruin everything and it is very hard/literally impossible to bring everything back. It is very good you do not blame anybody, I respect your opinion. But if you are planning to go this summer and if you need us, you can always vent here and tell how you feel...

 

[mesohappy]

@mesohappy, yes, 100%. There are moments I wish I could blame somebody, but when you point a finger at somebody, four fingers point back at you.

Since it all shattered so quickly,maybe theres still a chance it could all be built back up quickly(?) Is that why your holding out until summer? To see how things go?

 

[helpmehelpme]

Icarus, I can relate to remorse about pot use and its role in the break-up of a deeply meaningful relationship. It got me lurking here and now replying to your post. Because of how I felt high, I introduced the idea of divorce to my 15-year wife. Not sure I will ever overcome the regret of the divorce that followed. This may not help you, but at least lets you know someone is suffering in a similar way to you, can relate to your pain. Feel free to message me if you like, knowing I cast no judgments about the path you choose. I know not what path I will choose.
Actually new here and don't know that messaging is an option. I am not seeing it but thought I had seen others reference PMing and thought that referred to it. Anyhow, I am kindred when it comes to this.

Icarus, I can relate to remorse about pot use and its role in the break-up of a deeply meaningful relationship. It got me lurking here and now replying to your post. Because of how I felt high, I introduced the idea of divorce to my 15-year wife. Not sure I will ever overcome the regret of the divorce that followed. This may not help you, but at least lets you know someone is suffering in a similar way to you, can relate to your pain. Feel free to message me if you like, knowing I cast no judgments about the path you choose. I know not what path I will choose.

Actually new here and don't know that messaging is an option. I am not seeing it but thought I had seen others reference PMing and thought that referred to it. Anyhow, I am kindred when it comes to this.

So new that I quote my own post needlessly and obliviously ...

Icarus, I can relate to remorse about pot use and its role in the break-up of a deeply meaningful relationship. It got me lurking here and now replying to your post. Because of how I felt high, I introduced the idea of divorce to my 15-year wife. Not sure I will ever overcome the regret of the divorce that followed. This may not help you, but at least lets you know someone is suffering in a similar way to you, can relate to your pain. Feel free to message me if you like, knowing I cast no judgments about the path you choose. I know not what path I will choose.
Actually new here and don't know that messaging is an option. I am not seeing it but thought I had seen others reference PMing and thought that referred to it. Anyhow, I am kindred when it comes to this.

So new that I quote my own post needlessly and obliviously and don't know how to erase ...

And try to erase and do it again! Time to sleep.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

@Underscore I messed up my life. Been smoking pot for way too long. Turnes into self-absorbed arrogant, selfish cunt. Lost love of my life because of my immaturity and fear of my feelings.

I'm so sorry. I can relate. I messed up my life and my health with alcohol. I used it cover up all my issues and its left me broken. There's no way back for me due to my deteriorating health, but maybe there is still a way for you?

 

[Cutepoison]

I know how it feels. I had everything going for me a year ago as well. And now, I wake up every day with regret.

 

[Icarus]

You're welcome.

I'm doing okay. Still here, SLOWLY trying to get everything together for my exit. How are you doing? I hope @ least a little bit better since you've started this post.

@Time, meh, this birthday made me more depressed. Family was toasting and I was thinking about suicide

Since it all shattered so quickly,maybe theres still a chance it could all be built back up quickly(?) Is that why your holding out until summer? To see how things go?

@mesohappy I have no desire for anything anymore. My sister is pregnant now. I cant mess up her pregnancy. She's due in May.

 

[Amorphous Blob]

It is a tragic comedy of life indeed.

What happened? What brought you here?

I used to think my life was a tragedy, now I realize it's a comedy

 

[Time]

meh, this birthday made me more depressed. Family was toasting and I was thinking about suicide

I hear ya. Sounds like my normal reaction to my birthdays.

 

[Mm80]

@Underscore I messed up my life. Been smoking pot for way too long. Turnes into self-absorbed arrogant, selfish cunt. Lost love of my life because of my immaturity and fear of my feelings.

Turnes into self-absorbed arrogant, selfish cunt. Lost love of my life because of my immaturity and fear of my feelings..
Snap. Everyone goes on about moving on and plenty more fish in the sea. But some people do lose the one, through their own fault and dont necessarly recover.i can relate completely.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

So true. A year & a half ago I weighed 100 pounds less than I do now & am wrecked with nvs & ptsd.... Will be gone by end of Feb

 

[Istanbulite]

Life is such a roller coaster. it's disgusting and hilarious at the same time