Its difficult to die

[TimetoGo!]

I only recently came across this site......read alot of comments and everyone has conflicting opinions on what the ideal 'method' should be to leave this life.

For me, it just proves how difficult it is to make that final decision. I don't think deep down any of us want it (to die) but its reached a point where we feel we have no other option.

None of us wants to hurt anyone , but I know the pain I will inflict on my family. It is extremely selfish. My parents are great people, it will kill them.

But no matter how much I know it will hurt people I still need to do it. Its almost a daily obsession. No way out, no way back, I'm done with this life.

I don't want to be sat typing on this site, asking questions, delaying it all..........all I want is clarity on how I'm going to do it. I think too many on here are here for attention (which is fine if you get comfort in that and it helps).

I'm not here for attention. I'm here to make a final decision.

I am currently sat at my laptop, in my front room, with music on. My wife is out with her friends having a drink. I should be playing poker or watching Football but I am here.

It's very upsetting and I hate this feeling but I have this urge to leave this world because of the pain I feel in my mind everyday.

I think in time things could improve if I work hard enough, but I just can't stand this day to day suffering of life and the depression I feel and inflict on others around me.

I've had a few vodka's, was going to down 40 paracetamol and 20 Codeine but people on here just say I'll end up in hospital.

I wish this was easier.

God bless everyone in you're struggles x

 

[carnivore]

I've had a few vodka's, was going to down 40 paracetamol and 20 Codeine but people on here just say I'll end up in hospital.

Lethal dose of paracetamol is 200 mg / kg body weight.

 

[jodes2]

I think everyone just has different preferences and situations. It's a case of going through methods one by one and saying I can/can't do that or I do/don't like the sound of that.

I don't think it's a good thing to rush, you need clarity about what you're going to do, it's a big decision. It takes time.

Sorry for the pain you're going through

Yes please don't down paracetamol, it's just asking for drawn out pain. Not a nice way to go.

Have you looked at SN? It's quite easy to get together what you need for it. Check ou Stan's guide....

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[TimetoGo!]

Lethal dose of paracetamol is 200 mg / kg body weight.

But others disagree with that..........Last thing I would want is a failed attempt. Hard decision

I think everyone just has different preferences and situations. It's a case of going through methods one by one and saying I can/can't do that or I do/don't like the sound of that.

I don't think it's a good thing to rush, you need clarity about what you're going to do, it's a big decision. It takes time.

Sorry for the pain you're going through

Yes please don't down paracetamol, it's just asking for drawn out pain. Not a nice way to go.

Have you looked at SN? It's quite easy to get together what you need for it. Check ou Stan's guide....

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

I know you have brought SN to my attention , wouldn't know how to source it here in Manchester Uk

 

[carnivore]

others say it should be more. anyway. either it ends in vomiting or liver damage or jaundice or liver transplant or death

Good luck

 

[TimetoGo!]

others say it should be more. anyway. either it ends in vomiting or liver damage or jaundice or liver transplant or death

Good luck

cheers for the helpful advice bro lol

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it really is difficult to die. I think that if it was easier there would be no endless suicide method discussions on the internet about many different methods. There's also the fear of failure which is what holds me back. I guess all that anyone can do is research methods and decide what is best for themselves. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[gimzero]

You feed a matrix so they want you inside the body.

 

[carnivore]

cheers for the helpful advice bro lol

How arę you?

 

[eternapeace]

I only recently came across this site......read alot of comments and everyone has conflicting opinions on what the ideal 'method' should be to leave this life.

For me, it just proves how difficult it is to make that final decision. I don't think deep down any of us want it (to die) but its reached a point where we feel we have no other option.

None of us wants to hurt anyone , but I know the pain I will inflict on my family. It is extremely selfish. My parents are great people, it will kill them.

But no matter how much I know it will hurt people I still need to do it. Its almost a daily obsession. No way out, no way back, I'm done with this life.

I don't want to be sat typing on this site, asking questions, delaying it all..........all I want is clarity on how I'm going to do it. I think too many on here are here for attention (which is fine if you get comfort in that and it helps).

I'm not here for attention. I'm here to make a final decision.

I am currently sat at my laptop, in my front room, with music on. My wife is out with her friends having a drink. I should be playing poker or watching Football but I am here.

It's very upsetting and I hate this feeling but I have this urge to leave this world because of the pain I feel in my mind everyday.

I think in time things could improve if I work hard enough, but I just can't stand this day to day suffering of life and the depression I feel and inflict on others around me.

I've had a few vodka's, was going to down 40 paracetamol and 20 Codeine but people on here just say I'll end up in hospital.

I wish this was easier.

God bless everyone in you're struggles x

Yes I'm here to get advice mainly on how to ctb. I think most of us are here because we're already beyond help (in life) and talking/trying to comfort each other is ultimately fruitless.

ctb is arguably both a selfish and a selfless act. Selfish because we may pain others while we exit to peace. Selfless because we don't want our problems/our attitude to spill over and negatively impact other people as long as we live.

 

[TimetoGo!]

Yes I'm here to get advice mainly on how to ctb. I think most of us are here because we're already beyond help (in life) and talking/trying to comfort each other is ultimately fruitless.

ctb is arguably both a selfish and a selfless act. Selfish because we may pain others while we exit to peace. Selfless because we don't want our problems/our attitude to spill over and negatively impact other people as long as we live.

you make a good point..................I do think my feeling low, down, depressed is affecting my wife and step son. I have to go

 

[eternapeace]

you make a good point..................I do think my feeling low, down, depressed is affecting my wife and step son. I have to go

Hopefully they will understand you chose the lesser of two evils.

 

[Petunia]

Where is all the fentanol? I read everyday about the multiple od's from the stuff but have no clue how to find it!!