Venting Its clear now, happy to start my euthanasia process soon.

[ddutch]

Ok

So i am waiting for my euthanasia process to start, i am number 5 on the list now. So shortly the team will have time for me to start up the process. I got N as a backup.

Now i am in Italy to spend time with my friends who live here. They know i am going

Had a shit day yesterday here in Italy.
I can clearly see many things and impressions dont come in my mind anymore i cant feel the reall joy or experiences anymore.. Its clear some things in me dont work normally anymore.
Its time for things to come to a ending.

So weird to see points in life i did feel everything and felt content and happy in the past but now its broken.

It can be confrontating but it show its better to leave this life.

I am happy i made the choice for euthanasia and its time. Hope it starts soon.

 

[Marc]

I have a question. Why go through the Euthanasia procedure while you have N?

 

[ddutch]

I have a question. Why go through the Euthanasia procedure while you have N?

Because here i have a choice to do it with euthanasia. Pure for my family, but applications are not a guarantee it will be accepted.. But as far i can see now they are positive. But just to be sure if it get denied i got N and than i need to do it alone.

 

[Its911]

Because here i have a choice to do it with euthanasia. Pure for my family, but applications are not a guarantee it will be accepted.. But as far i can see now they are positive. But just to be sure if it get denied i got N and than i need to do it alone.

If you dont mind me asking where did you apply for euthanasia? Im set on the Night-Night or SN but that sounds like a much better choice...

 

[ddutch]

If you dont mind me asking where did you apply for euthanasia? Im set on the Night-Night or SN but that sounds like a much better choice...

I live in holland.
Here we have the opportunity when dealing with psychological issues that cannot be resolved with therapy and life is not at that point it is healthy and worthy you can apply.

They have seen my case and got approved for the process. So that is a big positive point because they do the pre research if you are permissible so they dont lose time and dont let down people later on. But some times they still deny people for different reasons Because they need to play it safe. The justice department can rule on this as well when they make a mistake.

 

[Dutch]

im happy for you that they take you serious and that you probably get the help you want
do you think they gonna help you till the end? cause they can still stop it if they cant put everything on paper for the law.
i did apply there to but i need to do some tests to confirm my mental disease on paper from a psychiatrist, and that is a long process and then they can still deny my apply there.

 

[MajorDude]

Ddutch, sending hugs. I wish you that everything will be the way you dreamed of.

 

[ddutch]

Ddutch, sending hugs. I wish you that everything will be the way you dreamed of.

Thanka man. Hope all is going well with you there.

 

[ddutch]

im happy for you that they take you serious and that you probably get the help you want
do you think they gonna help you till the end? cause they can still stop it if they cant put everything on paper for the law.
i did apply there to but i need to do some tests to confirm my mental disease on paper from a psychiatrist, and that is a long process and then they can still deny my apply there.

I know but have been in 3 clinics for total of 6 months. And have had multiple years of therapy trauma related also. So they do have the dossiers and know i dont have any perspective anymore. So they said they want to do only a few test of there own but already have clear info on me.

So it is clear where i stand already said i wont accept any therapy anymore.
So first 2 voorwaarden are cleared already at this point for me.

 

[Dutch]

I know but have been in 3 clinics for total of 6 months. And have had multiple years of therapy trauma related also. So they do have the dossiers and know i dont have any perspective anymore. So they said they want to do only a few test of there own but already have clear info on me.

So it is clear where i stand already said i wont accept any therapy anymore.
So first 2 voorwaarden are cleared already at this point for me.

Sounds like you got everything well on paper and that u had allot help in the past. let's hope for you and the family that the process gonna be fast from now and that u get the rest u want, keep us updated.

 

[ddutch]

Sounds like you got everything well on paper and that u had allot help in the past. let's hope for you and the family that the process gonna be fast from now and that u get the rest u want, keep us updated.

Yeah i will keep it updated here because it will be soon they start now.

Probably end of march i will get a call for the process

 

[Its911]

I live in holland.
Here we have the opportunity when dealing with psychological issues that cannot be resolved with therapy and life is not at that point it is healthy and worthy you can apply.

They have seen my case and got approved for the process. So that is a big positive point because they do the pre research if you are permissible so they dont lose time and dont let down people later on. But some times they still deny people for different reasons Because they need to play it safe. The justice department can rule on this as well when they make a mistake.

Thanks for clarifying, im glad you where approved. I wish i could have that out, happy trails and may you find peace in the end of it.

 

[cornflowerblue]

Ok

So i am waiting for my euthanasia process to start, i am number 5 on the list now. So shortly the team will have time for me to start up the process. I got N as a backup.

Now i am in Italy to spend time with my friends who live here. They know i am going

Had a shit day yesterday here in Italy.
I can clearly see many things and impressions dont come in my mind anymore i cant feel the reall joy or experiences anymore.. Its clear some things in me dont work normally anymore.
Its time for things to come to a ending.

So weird to see points in life i did feel everything and felt content and happy in the past but now its broken.

It can be confrontating but it show its better to leave this life.

I am happy i made the choice for euthanasia and its time. Hope it starts soon.

Wonderful that your country has such an option :)

 

[JustAboutDone]

Yeah i will keep it updated here because it will be soon they start now.

Probably end of march i will get a call for the process

@ddutch i am so glad for you that this in place and you can have time now to make any arrangements you want and feel secure that things can hopefully be settled in the way you wish. I wish you luck and love and I hope you can find, not enjoyment but some calm and pleasant time in the coming weeks. It's all good now xx

 

[21Neberg]

Yeah i will keep it updated here because it will be soon they start now.

Probably end of march i will get a call for the process

Succes man!

 

[cornflowerblue]

Ok

So i am waiting for my euthanasia process to start, i am number 5 on the list now. So shortly the team will have time for me to start up the process. I got N as a backup.

Now i am in Italy to spend time with my friends who live here. They know i am going

Had a shit day yesterday here in Italy.
I can clearly see many things and impressions dont come in my mind anymore i cant feel the reall joy or experiences anymore.. Its clear some things in me dont work normally anymore.
Its time for things to come to a ending.

So weird to see points in life i did feel everything and felt content and happy in the past but now its broken.

It can be confrontating but it show its better to leave this life.

I am happy i made the choice for euthanasia and its time. Hope it starts soon.

This is a selfish request but I would love for you to make a blog post or article describing your journey. I think it would help reduce the stigma around assisted suicide for mental illness and would show people that it's possible to have a planned and rational suicide (compared to the current prevailing view that suicide is always irrational and impulsive). It would also help for people to see the story of how many steps and how much time it took, which would help with the societal view that the doctors doing assisted suicide are just serial killers on the inside who are acting out of sadistic intent.

 

[ddutch]

This is a selfish request but I would love for you to make a blog post or article describing your journey. I think it would help reduce the stigma around assisted suicide for mental illness and would show people that it's possible to have a planned and rational suicide (compared to the current prevailing view that suicide is always irrational and impulsive). It would also help for people to see the story of how many steps and how much time it took, which would help with the societal view that the doctors doing assisted suicide are just serial killers on the inside who are acting out of sadistic intent.

Yeah that's also why i opened this thread.
So i will keep updating maybe also some background how i came to this point what i have weight of against each other.

 

[ddutch]

Succes man!

Hey gozer

Thanks.

 

[odette]

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I really wish all suicide could work this way. People work with you, do everything they can to solve your situation so that life is tolerable. Then if it really can't be done, then a peaceful death with loved ones.

That is how suicide should work! People shouldn't be left in a mess to do it on their own with no resources to do it right.

 

[TAW122]

I'm glad you got approved for the process and I hope they accept your application and give you the green light to die peacefully. Also, good job on having N as a backup just in case things don't go to plan. If anything, hide your N and protect it at all costs!

 

[ddutch]

I'm glad you got approved for the process and I hope they accept your application and give you the green light to die peacefully. Also, good job on having N as a backup just in case things don't go to plan. If anything, hide your N and protect it at all costs!

I will dont worry

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Good luck, take care, hugs and kiss.

 

[ddutch]

Okay.
So to update this process you mine with the euthanasia process.

Last week I called the clinic again to see how far the waitinglist is now.
In the last 7 months I have moved up one place for my region in holland so by next week I will be on position 4.

This is taking to long my case manager apologized and explained its because of the health care system there are to many people who are done and applied.
I have talked with my family and explained I am going to do it myself with N I have at home.

So soon after my moms birthday I will make the steps the last steps

 

[lululoo]

Okay.
So to update this process you mine with the euthanasia process.

Last week I called the clinic again to see how far the waitinglist is now.
In the last 7 months I have moved up one place for my region in holland so by next week I will be on position 4.

This is taking to long my case manager apologized and explained its because of the health care system there are to many people who are done and applied.
I have talked with my family and explained I am going to do it myself with N I have at home.

So soon after my moms birthday I will make the steps the last steps

I'm sorry the waitlist is so long.
Will you be telling your mom the day you are going to do it? does it help to be able to let her know your plans?

 

[weonaestupida]

heyyy this is very interesting, don't you mind if can i make some questions about this in private messages?

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

This should be legalized worldwide for people at least 21+

 

[ddutch]

heyyy this is very interesting, don't you mind if can i make some questions about this in private messages?

Yes sure see you in private

I'm sorry the waitlist is so long.
Will you be telling your mom the day you are going to do it? does it help to be able to let her know your plans?

I have had conversations all day yesterday with a psychologist my doctor etc. The psychologist ask me if i wanted to come and talk for some support in the months waiting. I am just so tired and sick of waiting and also of the last years in mental healthcare in and out clinics.

But my family knows it is soon also my mom.

 

[barny]

Wow didnt know you could do that. Can i ask do you have a physical problem or they will just do it for depression?? Weird. I was meant to go to italy this week but cancelled it as couldnt stand seeing people. I guess im no longer so good at hiding it.good luck

 

[weonaestupida]

i

Yes sure see you in private


I have had conversations all day yesterday with a psychologist my doctor etc. The psychologist ask me if i wanted to come and talk for some support in the months waiting. I am just so tired and sick of waiting and also of the last years in mental healthcare in and out clinics.

But my family knows it is soon also my mom.

i sent you a message :)

 

[ddutch]

Wow didnt know you could do that. Can i ask do you have a physical problem or they will just do it for depression?? Weird. I was meant to go to italy this week but cancelled it as couldnt stand seeing people. I guess im no longer so good at hiding it.good luck

I have personality disorder depression and ptsd.