storeboughtisfine
trying my best
- May 1, 2023
- 58
Spent 3 months in treatment only to have my health insurance taken away from me when my spouse lost their job.
Ive been off meds for 4 months and counting and it's just getting harder and harder to bear being around. Ive made so many good moves in the last 4 months, despite it all. I'm in the best place ive been in in my whole life physically, but i just cannot keep doing this.
I'm waiting on a doctor appointment to seenif i can get back on meds but if this doctor doesnt work with me, i am considering just making my final peace with this life and moving on to the next. I'm so tired. I have so many health conditions that make me want to not live. Im 27 and my body is broken and hurting like someone twice my age. I should be able to keep going, i wasnt aupposed to live this long, my first attempt was at 15 and all i succeeded in was making myself sick for days instead of ending it.
I just want relief.
Ive been off meds for 4 months and counting and it's just getting harder and harder to bear being around. Ive made so many good moves in the last 4 months, despite it all. I'm in the best place ive been in in my whole life physically, but i just cannot keep doing this.
I'm waiting on a doctor appointment to seenif i can get back on meds but if this doctor doesnt work with me, i am considering just making my final peace with this life and moving on to the next. I'm so tired. I have so many health conditions that make me want to not live. Im 27 and my body is broken and hurting like someone twice my age. I should be able to keep going, i wasnt aupposed to live this long, my first attempt was at 15 and all i succeeded in was making myself sick for days instead of ending it.
I just want relief.