I was drugged with Lithium, Neurontin, Risperdol, Prozac, Zoloft, and Wellbutrin in my mid/late teens. Most of those against my will, after an involuntary 8 day hospitalization due to a self injury wound. Some of my most suicidal moments when I was dead set to go through with it came when I was coming off meds or simply missed doses for a day or few days due to forgetting or not caring, so I would never take the risk with these drugs again. I fear they may have done permanent damage. They definitely led to some trippy dream time and may have helped me go deeper into lucid dreaming. They also at times made orgasm seemingly impossible so I gained sexual stamina (not that that's been of much benefit in the last 8 years) ...(Is this cause they don't want the mentally ill to reproduce, that it has this effect?)
Mushrooms are the only antidepressant that has truly helped me...but they have made me more sensitive to life in general. Sights/smells/sounds...so living in a world obsessed with engines has become barely tolerable. Engines are a blasphemy against nature. Against our birthright to peace of mind. We've had free energy for more than a 100 years...there was never a need to burn fossil fuels or have loud engines disturbing all the sentient life around it. I say fuck this shit, I'm out...but maybe if I stay, I can help society come to it's senses...or deal with the aftermath when there's no more oil and people are panicking because they can't get their oil fix, and go into addiction withdrawal.
I've been way more suicidal this week cause I haven't had ripe bananas...seriously. I think they help me produce serotonin cause they have tryptophan? I forget... Anyways... they may be a good medicine for some people. However, unripe bananas contain 'protein resistant starch'...or something, don't quote me...but they can help us have more lucid dream time... Dream space can sometimes be a better/easier place to do inner work when one is too depressed to do stuff in their waking life. Some believe that the dream realm is the 'real reality' and that things have to change here first, before they can change in our illusory waking life. Ramblings of a madman, all of this, I know. Bananas and Mushrooms, what a nutcase I must be. Walnuts are good for the brain too. And hemp seeds have lots of good fats and omegas to help our brain function...especially if you're vegan and don't want to mess with fish oils.
I bet the info on this forum could solve most of the worlds problems, especially if implemented by the good people here. If you're a fellow wanderer please message me! All alone here in neurotypical DumFukistan