It's actually FUNNY how life is a prison-sentence for a crime u didn't commit. But u have to serve your time anyway.

[ChildrensITV]

No choice to be here. If you leave on your own terms, you'll have committed the greatest sin. No guarantee of God's help, but the second u take matters into your own hands, then you're noticed, judged and punished.

It's like being born into a prisoner's camp. You just have to suffer it. All you can do is wake up and hope today isn't as shit as yesterday.

I will probably never LIKE being alive, but with a few TWEAKS, I would be willing to serve the rest of my sentence and not end it myself. But I can't have those tweaks. My life is the worst life of all the people I know IRL. Yet nobody knows how much it takes to keep it together. They have no idea how much it takes to be me. They would call me a coward if I CTB'd, but they have no idea what I have to go through, what I've been through and what my fate looks like if nothing improves.

I'm so fucking tired.

 

[Pluto]

 

[apearl]

Yeah thats kind of how I feel too. Your born into a world and forced to play a role in it or you suffer homelessness/starvation/sickness (but you might still suffer with those with a job and motivation if your unlucky enough).

And they take away all the easy ways out, so you have to either work hard to hopefully find a peaceful way to ctb or die brutally.

 

[Ligottian]

That's a pretty good way of putting it.