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Buh-bye!

jkfajsd
Jan 10, 2024
361
If you really want it If it's the most important thing to you uf it matters more than the other things, it's you who would show it in their actions. It's you who's literally not need to prove it or write or think about it, your actions would just show what you care the most about, your lifestyle will.

It has been you all along. It has been me all along doing this, prioritising other things over the important part of my life.
I'll end it all. I'll end it all.
I am just constantly blaming other things, other people for my weakness for my inability to fuckijbgv care about what I care about.
That is what not feeling sorry about yourself means, not actively blaming anything because you know the thing that matters to you is number fed up in your priority list. I don't even have a list.
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mysticatedwine

mysticatedwine

rotting autistic sun
Mar 4, 2025
78
what is it that you care about and are unable to care about?
 
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Buh-bye!

jkfajsd
Jan 10, 2024
361
I was just venting and I don't want to talk about it.
Thanks for asking though.
 
Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Enlightened
May 7, 2025
1,059
Sometimes, though it isn't you... and it also isn't anyone else. Sometimes bad things happen and there was nothing you could have done differently to have changed it.

I'm for sure to blame for a lot of things in my life... but I've also had stretches where I didn't do anything obviously wrong that I or anyone else would have said was wrong... and I still failed anyway. It is possible to make no mistakes and still lose. Sometimes it isn't your fault. Sometimes there is no one to blame. Sometimes it just is. It's easier when you can blame someone, even if you blame yourself, because then it feels like it makes sense or maybe next time can be better. When there is no blame or fault, it hurts worse.
 
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Buh-bye!

jkfajsd
Jan 10, 2024
361
I understand what you mean, and I appreciate the effort, to try to make me feel alright with what happened, to make me not blame myself. But the thing that I am talking about isn't one certain action or decision that altered something else, it's just a note to my own self to make myself realise that I have to start blaming my own self in order to fix things from my part. Night mate, bye !
 

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