It never stops.

[iCan'tStandLifeAnymo]

The pain, the anxiety, the sadness, the suffering, the dread of going through every day for no reason just to suffer through another day tomorrow again. It just gets worse every day I can't deal with it anymore. I hope one day I will finally do it. Fuck this shit man I never asked for being here. I just want the pain to end.

 

[Lucas70]

The pain, the anxiety, the sadness, the suffering, the dread of going through every day for no reason just to suffer through another day tomorrow again. It just gets worse every day I can't deal with it anymore. I hope one day I will finally do it. Fuck this shit man I never asked for being here.

Nobody ask to be here.its all like a luck.some live well and some suffer.Just try to live like a sun.Give only, no need to take.

 

[iCan'tStandLifeAnymo]

Nobody ask to be here.its all like a luck.some live well and some suffer.Just try to live like a sun.Give only, no need to take.

I know no one asks to be here that's the worst part about this shit we call life.

 

[ddd1234]

Guys, what can I say? 3 months ago my life was perfect and suddenly lost everything because of the stupidest mistake ever. Because of my mistake I fell into deep depression and unbelievable anxiety with full of regrets and then lost peace of my mind, health, looks, a gorgeous girlfriend and amazing job. This is so unrealistic that I cannot believe it. Now I am mentally ill. I was in the psych ward couple of days because of strong suicidal thoughts but didn't help. I am thinking about CBT all the time, every minute is a pure torture. I cannot stand it anymore. I wish that time machine exists :(

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, living is very painful. It is hard to carry on when everyday is suffering. It is cruel how we were forced to exist and we have to endure the horrors of this life. It is a dreadful feeling when things get worse, that is one of the worst things about living, there is no limit as to how bad things can get. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[iCan'tStandLifeAnymo]

Guys, what can I say? 3 months ago my life was perfect and suddenly lost everything because of the stupidest mistake ever. Because of my mistake I fell into deep depression and unbelievable anxiety with full of regrets and then lost peace of my mind, health, looks, a gorgeous girlfriend and amazing job. This is so unrealistic that I cannot believe it. Now I am mentally ill. I was in the psych ward couple of days because of strong suicidal thoughts but didn't help. I am thinking about CBT all the time, every minute is a pure torture. I cannot stand it anymore. I wish that time machine exists :(

I feel you I think you should avoid psych wards and stuff like that they honestly most likely won't help much if at all or make you feel even worse I hope your life gets more bearable. ❤

 

[ddd1234]

The worst thing is that I made a stupid mistake. If I got sick or if it was some random event I could bear it. The thought that I lost everything because of my stupid mistake haunts me. I am thinking about it every moment. Don't have a job right now so I spend all days at home ruminating about my stupid mistakes. The only thing that brings relief is thinking about CTB.

 

[Lucas70]

The worst thing is that I made a stupid mistake. If I got sick or if it was some random event I could bear it. The thought that I lost everything because of my stupid mistake haunts me. I am thinking about it every moment. Don't have a job right now so I spend all days at home ruminating about my stupid mistakes. The only thing that brings relief is thinking about CTB.

True but ctb is not easy.Those who successful are pure luck.Unless we can get unconscious and die.Like unconscious while in the river so i can just drown without having to overcome survival instinct,no panic,no awareness.

 

[ddd1234]

Those who successful are pure luck

Pure luck? What do you mean by that? I thought that there are some very effective methods like hanging.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Guys, what can I say? 3 months ago my life was perfect and suddenly lost everything because of the stupidest mistake ever. Because of my mistake I fell into deep depression and unbelievable anxiety with full of regrets and then lost peace of my mind, health, looks, a gorgeous girlfriend and amazing job. This is so unrealistic that I cannot believe it. Now I am mentally ill. I was in the psych ward couple of days because of strong suicidal thoughts but didn't help. I am thinking about CBT all the time, every minute is a pure torture. I cannot stand it anymore. I wish that time machine exists :(

Same happened to me. Wish I had some N to drink right now.

 

[stellabelle]

The pain, the anxiety, the sadness, the suffering, the dread of going through every day for no reason just to suffer through another day tomorrow again. It just gets worse every day I can't deal with it anymore. I hope one day I will finally do it. Fuck this shit man I never asked for being here. I just want the pain to end.

Sounds like the last 28 years of my life. And every time I start to *do* or feel just a little bit better or hopeful… people fuck with me. Push push pushing too many buttons.

 

[Lucas70]

True but ctb is not easy.Those who successful are pure luck.Unless we can get unconscious and die.Like unconscious while in the river so i can just drown without having to overcome survival instinct,no panic,no awareness

Pure luck? What do you mean by that? I thought that there are some very effective methods like hang

Pure luck? What do you mean by that? I thought that there are some very effective methods like hanging.

If we can Ctb as we like,many of us are not here anymore.Those who is lucky can Ctb.Hanging is effective but

Pure luck? What do you mean by that? I thought that there are some very effective methods like hanging.

If you can overcome SI,if you can stand the panic,if can get unconscious,if u are not found earlier,if you can get your carotid artery close then u can ctb with hanging.If you lucky enough have money to buy N while it's still available that the best method

 

[ddd1234]

f you lucky enough have money to buy N that the best method

I have money for N but am scarred about purchasing an illegal substance to my country.

 

[Lucas70]

I have money for N but am scarred about purchasing an illegal substance to my country.

Then you can travel and ctb there

 

[ddd1234]

Travel to Mexico? impossible for me in Coronavirus times, I live in Europe.

 

[Lucas70]

Travel to Mexico? impossible for me in Coronavirus times, I live in Europe.

That why i said it is pure luck.some people can ctb using simple method.Why not everybody can if it is not pure luck

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I want to be gone

 

[iCan'tStandLifeAnymo]

Sounds like the last 28 years of my life. And every time I start to *do* or feel just a little bit better or hopeful… people fuck with me. Push push pushing too many buttons.

Exactly, when I actually feel little better for a moment something or someone ruins it.

 

[stellabelle]

Exactly, when I actually feel little better for a moment something or someone ruins it.

Yep. And then someone who "helps" or attempts to is shut down, because they think they can "fix" it for you or "help" you "fix it" yourself but it never is "fixed", it's a lose/lose battle of "fuck this."

 

[Lucas70]

I know no one asks to be here that's the worst part about this shit we call life.

True we are suffering in life.Only ctb is the answer to this

 

[Samsara]

I feel you brother. Been searching for the light at the end of the tunnel only to gradually realize the light itself may be ctb