Venting It makes me sad thinking about how much I loved New Years Eve when I was young and life was great

[Praestat_Mori]

About 4h to go ... I think I fall asleep before the new year starts. It'll be the 2nd time in decades that I'm not awake at midnight on New Years Eve, what a sad life when it could be so great, if I wasn't trapped in such bad circumstances after I failed in life several years ago.

I really wish I could travel back in time and live life again but unfortunately there's only a new year ahead of me. Idk what I can expect, only hope it's not as bad as this year was for me.

 

[annointed_towers]

I loved New Years too. My birthday is Jan 3 so it was my favorite time of year. Excited for all the new possibilities and resolutions. Now I just treat it like any other day in this hellish life.

 

[Anon7b8]

Something about knowing things won't get better makes New Year's daunting... And dreadful.

 

[Zebulon]

I just wanted to make a thread like this.
Last year I atleast went out at midnight, to the lake in my city. Just to watch the fireworks and to feel better of not staying indoors, but I dont think I'm strong enough this year for that.

And to think new years eve was my favorite time of the year...
Welp, atleast it finally gave me the push to buy some RC opioids, so that I wont suffer the same fate next year.

 

[hopeless08]

About 4h to go ... I think I fall asleep before the new year starts. It'll be the 2nd time in decades that I'm not awake at midnight on New Years Eve, what a sad life when it could be so great, if I wasn't trapped in such bad circumstances after I failed in life several years ago.

I really wish I could travel back in time and live life again but unfortunately there's only a new year ahead of me. Idk what I can expect, only hope it's not as bad as this year was for me.

I feel the same exact way I want so badly to go back to those years that I was happy and things were great, now when I think about those happy times, the good memories, I hurts me because I know those times are gone and just thinking about good memories makes me feel 1000% worse.

 

[Zebulon]

Update:
I was outside and it went better than expected. I needed to wait, till there where no more families in the hallway, so I dont need to talk to them. Then I went to a bridge and yeah, sucked that I was the only one standing alone and everyone else was happy. BUT the fireworks were nice.
On my way back I saw a dude from my university and needed to akwardly avoid talking to him, because no way I can say that I'm spending New Years alone. Ill get memed to death for that.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Lying in bed. Alone.
It's grim. I hate it. The fakery. Getting texts and messages from people who don't give a flying fuck about you.
The man I love doesn't love me. My son treats me like shit. My house is falling apart.

 

[Zebulon]

Lying in bed. Alone.
It's grim. I hate it. The fakery. Getting texts and messages from people who don't give a flying fuck about you.
The man I love doesn't love me. My son treats me like shit. My house is falling apart.

I'm sorry to hear that. You really dont deserve this

 

[SoulCage]

Same also makes me sad. It was always my favourite celebration day. Coming together with family or friends, talking about the old and the new year. I felt excitement for the future.

Now it's just... I know that there is only suffering ahead.

 

[CTB Dream]

Ya make sad want time travle no injury damage but even this see new yr movemove time dtriort scary

 

[koro]

Spent my time on my pc while my family was celebrating the "repetition of another period of endless suffering". And playing a multiplayer game alone (since I have no friends) was honestly much more fun than pretending to be happy about repeating the downfall of my life

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I'd give anything to be one of the million NPCs packed together like sardines in Time's Square tonight.

...NOT.

 

[Mitsumi]

Yes. I used to love all special dates. Loved Christmas decorations, my birthday, dressing up for halloween. Now it doesn't feel like anything to me.

 

[Abyssal]

Half asleep but the title spoke out to me as meaningful. Love you @Praestat_Mori you have a place in my heart

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I feel the same exact way I want so badly to go back to those years that I was happy and things were great, now when I think about those happy times, the good memories, I hurts me because I know those times are gone and just thinking about good memories makes me feel 1000% worse.

Good memories of my past often make me feel worse, too.

Update:
I was outside and it went better than expected.

I'm glad you went outside! I spent some time on my balcony, watching the fireworks.

Lying in bed. Alone.
It's grim. I hate it. The fakery. Getting texts and messages from people who don't give a flying fuck about you.
The man I love doesn't love me. My son treats me like shit. My house is falling apart.

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I send u a BIG HUG!!
Thanks for all your replies @SoulCage @CTB Dream @korokoro001 @MatrixPrisoner @Mitsumi @Abyssal and everone else.

I hope for all us the best and Happy New Year!

 

[IWishToDie]

About 4h to go ... I think I fall asleep before the new year starts. It'll be the 2nd time in decades that I'm not awake at midnight on New Years Eve, what a sad life when it could be so great, if I wasn't trapped in such bad circumstances after I failed in life several years ago.

I really wish I could travel back in time and live life again but unfortunately there's only a new year ahead of me. Idk what I can expect, only hope it's not as bad as this year was for me.

Happy NY @Praestat_Mori
I felt horrible the whole night! Worst night of the year for lonely, trapped people. Best of luck with this one whether you live or CTB.