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PrisonBreak
Student
- Oct 29, 2021
- 122
It hurts me sometimes that my ctb may be victory to some. I am surrounded by some evil relatives who would so rejoice hearing that I have taken my own life. Obviously it wouldn't bother me once I'm dead, but it sickens me daily that I would have lost to them and in the end they would have the last laugh. I'm filled with anger when I think about it. Of course, I do have close family members who loves me and would get hurt by the news,but there are those evil ones that would be delighted. Part of me wants to stay so that I would not give them the satisfaction but unfortunately I'm too fragile and weak by my illnesses to endure every day misery. I feel like I'm a looser. It hurts me so much. I just want to get away from it all.
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