darknessisfine8
beauty is so painful
- Oct 12, 2025
- 3
( i realised what im trying to say is called " existential dread " as i was researching for others experiencing the same )
right now . i feel so much afraid of everything . like . i suddenly realised how everything is just here with no reason .
i realised how much we live our life without questioning a little part of it .
of how much we dont know anything abouf anything .
like . we live on a daily basis with no fear and just simply . for more than thousands of years .
without even knowing what all of it is for . and our philosophy does very little to help .
we dont know why we are here . or for how long . when is all started and why . and how or if its gonna end .
then suddenly . there are soooo many stuff that .. fuck it .
why are they here ? like all of it ?
all the stuff we see . hear and touch .
phones . trees . bees . tables . clouds . the sun . the earth . microwave . atoms .
all of it . we are suddenly born and we have to go through all of this with no choice . it makes me fucking mad .
why should it be in such way ? and can it even change ?
is there anyway things could be different .
no matter how much i shout . there is something super weird and absurd about the entire world .
and it really sucks to exist . and there is no way out of it .
even if i ctb . there is never the option for never being born . the pain of existing is not avoidable .
this pain of just being is so hard .
right now . i feel so much afraid of everything . like . i suddenly realised how everything is just here with no reason .
i realised how much we live our life without questioning a little part of it .
of how much we dont know anything abouf anything .
like . we live on a daily basis with no fear and just simply . for more than thousands of years .
without even knowing what all of it is for . and our philosophy does very little to help .
we dont know why we are here . or for how long . when is all started and why . and how or if its gonna end .
then suddenly . there are soooo many stuff that .. fuck it .
why are they here ? like all of it ?
all the stuff we see . hear and touch .
phones . trees . bees . tables . clouds . the sun . the earth . microwave . atoms .
all of it . we are suddenly born and we have to go through all of this with no choice . it makes me fucking mad .
why should it be in such way ? and can it even change ?
is there anyway things could be different .
no matter how much i shout . there is something super weird and absurd about the entire world .
and it really sucks to exist . and there is no way out of it .
even if i ctb . there is never the option for never being born . the pain of existing is not avoidable .
this pain of just being is so hard .
