It doesn't get any better...

[AtlasMik12]

Well I tried ctb twice, the first OD but it failed since I just did it without any actual knowledge, 2nd time tried by partially hanging but I got too scared (that was this last monday) the 2 days after felt nothing and that was kinda good but today I felt like everything came back, specially after a few really dissapointing things that happened to me today, so I just ordered my SN so I am planning to finally do it this wknd. Now I see it clear it doesn't get any better I made a fool of myself believing I will possibly have another chance but I was so deadly wrong.

 

[Treeline589]

You are so very right, it doesn't get better

 

[som1]

I hate how we get random thoughts of hope even though it's never going to get better.

 

[MsSelfsabotage]

Feeling the exact same thing today. This weird pressure/ pain in my chest has never been this bad. First time I'm actually excited about ctb and looking forward to it. Can't wait to order N, drink it and peace out . I can't take life anymore, I hate that when I get hopeful that it's gonna get crushed anyways. Life doesn't get better, the older you get the worse unless you're filthy rich and can compensate the pain with material things and traveling.

 

[Isit]

Well I tried ctb twice, the first OD but it failed since I just did it without any actual knowledge, 2nd time tried by partially hanging but I got too scared (that was this last monday) the 2 days after felt nothing and that was kinda good but today I felt like everything came back, specially after a few really dissapointing things that happened to me today, so I just ordered my SN so I am planning to finally do it this wknd. Now I see it clear it doesn't get any better I made a fool of myself believing I will possibly have another chance but I was so deadly wrong.

What happened today that made you order the SN?

I've tried to ctb with SN before but it was very impulsive and I ended up in hospital. I hope you have given yourself an adequate chance and I wish you peace whatever happens.

 

[Crazy4u]

it won't get better. It would either stay the same or get worse. Getting worse is what makes me want to ctb soon. I can't do this anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

Things will never get better for me and I know that for a fact. Things will very likely get worse and I do not want to be there to see it. I just want non existence. Life is very disappointing and depressing, and to have hope for something and then lose it, is certainly painful. I'm sorry it has come to this. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

I don't believe everyone has the ability to do a 180 and enjoy life.

 

[whatevs]

Feeling the exact same thing today. This weird pressure/ pain in my chest has never been this bad. First time I'm actually excited about ctb and looking forward to it. Can't wait to order N, drink it and peace out . I can't take life anymore, I hate that when I get hopeful that it's gonna get crushed anyways. Life doesn't get better, the older you get the worse unless you're filthy rich and can compensate the pain with material things and traveling.

These people kill themselves too, the very rich and able to travel freely.