Luc1d
Member
- Apr 5, 2023
- 5
I was diagnosed with BPD years ago. When I made a post a year ago, I was still in college juggling my studies with part time jobs. But years prior, I was a high school drop out who hated everything and anything. I was constantly into trouble and in simple terms, a very sad human being with no real connection to this world. I had deeply rooted issues with my trauma. Then when I was diagnosed, I took it as a death sentence. I thought there was no way out of the hole I dug for myself. So I stayed indoors for two complete years. That is, until I went back to school. One day, the pain that had lingered and brewed just became too much and I wanted to do anything to make it better. I had already SH, drugs, parties, sex, self isolation. You know what I never tried? Drowning myself into something positive. Like school and work. So when I started going back to school, I got a job and started up hobbies. Anything to distract myself. I integrated myself back into life in that way and surprisingly, it worked better than any drug. It helped me slowly piece things together enough to get the proper help I needed. I also met a lot of people along the way. I've finished college/university now and work at a clinic. I met an awesome man who acts as a pillar of support. I know there's a lot of negativity that goes on. I understand that the world is a shitty place. But if you're on here and you're reading this now, things won't forever stay shitty. Or maybe they will but past all that, there is hope. Everyone has the potential to be better; including you.
lots of love
you could write a book on this and i'd be your first buyer!!
Writing was one of the hobbies I picked up once I started piecing myself back together 
