Is your regret not ctb early or self destructive behavior?

[death137]

If you regret both then which in more?

 

[harmonica]

Self destructive behavior.

 

[Life_and_Death]

self destructive behavior. YAY FOR BPD!!!!! lol

 

[Nymph]

Both, I wish I would have ctb ed earlier, even at birth. I never wanted to be born, I don't want to live through this.

 

[Eurus]

I wish either of my previous attempts worked

 

[lucid]

Very much self-destructive behavior.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i wish i ctb'ed sooner, and also did more research than scrolling through the first page of google.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Self destructive behaviour. Any day of the week. If I hadn't ruined my life to this point, made such bad choices knowingly, ignored all the warning signs etc, then I doubt my urge right now would be to ctb. I'd still have mental illness but I think I could manage that without all the other factors I have going on.

 

[DeathNoot]

Both. Although lets be real, when I was first suicidal as a teen I did no research, I would have botched it 100% lol

 

[Lupgevif]

I wish I had ctb earlier. My chances are reduced to almost zero now, and I don't know when I'll recover my freedom.

 

[serah]

Wish I would've ctbed earlier. I look back on these past few years and nothing really worth living for has occured since my first attempt.

 

[Jojo81]

My self destructive behavior, as in addicted to vices, not saving enough, not working hard, Not trying to climb up the corporate ladder, not earning enough for retirement.

 

[primalscream]

Not ctbing in my first year of high school, hoping that my life would get better. So here I am, stupider than ever.

 

[disabledandhopeless]

Self destructive behaviour

 

[Ready2GoNow]

Both, but my main regret is not ctb earlier. I was horrifically abused as a child and there's no way I could possibly lead a normal life after that. I should have admitted defeat 10+ years ago.

 

[Bauhaus]

Regret not ctb earlier, when my health was better and I had more options to ctb and also my parents were younger and in better health.

 

[Blueman]

Self destructive behaviour