Is writing a suicide note cathartic?

[lostholmer]

Sometimes I really wonder if it is. I remember couple of times, when I wrote one, started to cry intensely and then I felt somehow relieved(?).
Is here anyone with similar stories?

 

[Lordsudbury]

Yeah I'm doing it now, I'm in page 48 complete with highlighted texts and chapters and quotes, scientific research and the odd lyrics.

VERY cathartic just in that you are not stuck with your thoughts but it's like having someone to talk to and explain your descent into madness.

Writing with pen on paper very therapeutic to me and often pulls me out of the darkness if not at least for the time being or a few hours to get me motivated to eat or go for a walk.

 

[WornOutLife]

It could be.
In my case, I just make sure of writing that it's nobody's fault the I'm CTB; it's my personal decision and my letter is some kind of testament because I mention what to do with my stuff (who cares anyway? I'll be dead lol)

 

[woxihuanni]

No. The real note would read: I will be a ghost and give a cold squeeze to your balls every single time you smile or laugh.

And then more things in this vein.

 

[Ardesevent]

Depends on the person. Whenever I write a note, I feel terrible about it and plop it in the trash can, but you all are thankfully relieved by it. Good luck with your note, @Lordsudbury .

 

[Rn110bg101]

Writing one for me feels like I'm on the edge of bursting out crying, it feels really terrible… and absolutely not worth it because any draft/note I made in that state was garbage.

 

[SadGuyWannaDie]

Depends on the person. Whenever I write a note, I feel terrible about it and plop it in the trash can, but you all are thankfully relieved by it. Good luck with your note, @Lordsudbury .

This is how I feel.. I went through the process of drafting several letters in my laptop. Then handwriting each individual final draft in a sealed envelope. In the end they all got ripped up in went in the trash. There just were no words good enough to make someone understand.

 

[BeHope]

Yes. I don't know if I'll ever write a note for the real deal but sometimes when I'm stressed I'll write one just to feel better. Not too sure why I find it cathartic, maybe because it helps me think by writing down everything I'm dealing with and everything I'm thankful for and all that.

 

[AJ95]

It is for me, it feels good to be able to tell my family how I really feel and how much I've really been struggling.

It's sort of a release I guess

 

[raindrops]

Yup I start crying. I feel bad because I want to blame a few people, it's my decision to go of course but because of the pain they made my heart feel they are to blame, they have to know how they made me feel, I won't be brutal, just honest in my note. It sounds awful & selfish doesn't it saying someone else is to blame especially when it's my choice, if they hadn't of made me feel so awful I wouldn't want to go. Anyway, they'd get over it. Things are looking up for me rn, I'm make amends with these people, I love them, so when I do go at least they knew I only ever meant well.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It stresses me out because I suck at writing and don't know what to say so I gave up on writing one

 

[antigone_iris]

I think it is indeed cathartic to let things out in writing. I'd make sure to not have anyone else read it unless it was the final one. I'd burn it, just to be safe. Makes it even more cathartic.

 

[draw a circle]

It is for me. Sometimes i write down things i want to say to people but can't, or just being sad all on my own, but it can be cathartic. Same with writing stories where i make a character go through something I'm going through maybe.

 

[k75]

I think it can be, just like journaling helps some people. Even if you end up not actually giving it to anyone and destroying it instead, it could help you feel better and organize your thoughts and feelings. It gets it out of your head.

 

[sadworld]

I'm really bad at it but I'll still write one just because.

 

[Nunyabinniss]

Sometimes I really wonder if it is. I remember couple of times, when I wrote one, started to cry intensely and then I felt somehow relieved(?).
Is here anyone with similar stories?

I can't say it's ever been cathartic. Although only written one or two at most

 

[Frauw]

Yes, I felt very relieved after writing one, though I'm pondering if I should write letters to specific people in my life now.

 

[specklenought]

i avoid it, i sometimes write stuff down in my phone notes, but i dont think theres any words i can say to make things better, and i struggle to be understood now, being understood when im gone doesnt really seem like an issue because i wont be there to experience it. Also as soon as I start writing about my parents or my friends i just realise there's too many people I'd be trying to reassure it wasnt their fault, and like i cant. its too much.

 

[Johndoe5381]

I wrote a note once, it was lengthy. Every evening I kept opening up the document to refine it, for reasons I could not really describe. After about a week it became just 3 separate sentences and I knew I was ready to leave. It was a failed attempt but afterwards I think, was i subconsciously avoiding the act? Was it a process to condition myself in preparation?
I don't know, but I think it certainly helps some people to write things down.

 

[kjghfg]

I feel like I could write pages worth of text and still it wouldn't convey anything of worth to anyone. I thought relinquishing any blame or whatever would feel like the best thing to do, but ultimately in my heart I don't want to leave one at all.

I am getting to the point where I'm past caring about how my death will affect anyone. Anything I write will therefore be ungenuine, which will in turn make me feel like a scumbag. Definitely not cathartic.