
LostZombie
Transgirl Chemist
- Oct 10, 2025
- 23
I have been suicidal since I was 8 year old, and it had always been clear to me the reason of it. Yet the more and more I grew I started to understand myself better, and I have over time realized, I don't want to escape my consciousness per say. I wanted to exit the human's being, yet I am stuck as the being of the human. So our only option is to discard our being; we want to escape consciousness, to return to the eternity of darkness, without the human's being.
So I wonder is it the mind itself that causes suffering to our being, and not the other beings? Is it natural selection that causes our suffering? Well we are given pain receptors to alert us of danger so, is our SI causes suffering to the being or does it mean that danger is suffering? You don't need to be in any danger to suffer, isolation is the safest you can be, but we cry without companionship. So, suffering is part of the being no matter what. So when you ctb you no longer suffer, and by effect, you lose the human. The human is the host, and our mind is a parasite to it. Therefore, to be human is to suffer.
Yet I ask is to be, to suffer?
I say for there to be an end is to give a goal. To not reach there in a time is to fail, which is why ultimately yes why to be, you must suffer. If you don't want to be, I implore you not to be. It's okay not to be, its the being's choice if it wants to continue to be.
I will leave this off with a quote from Hamlet
To be, or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,
So I wonder is it the mind itself that causes suffering to our being, and not the other beings? Is it natural selection that causes our suffering? Well we are given pain receptors to alert us of danger so, is our SI causes suffering to the being or does it mean that danger is suffering? You don't need to be in any danger to suffer, isolation is the safest you can be, but we cry without companionship. So, suffering is part of the being no matter what. So when you ctb you no longer suffer, and by effect, you lose the human. The human is the host, and our mind is a parasite to it. Therefore, to be human is to suffer.
Yet I ask is to be, to suffer?
I say for there to be an end is to give a goal. To not reach there in a time is to fail, which is why ultimately yes why to be, you must suffer. If you don't want to be, I implore you not to be. It's okay not to be, its the being's choice if it wants to continue to be.
I will leave this off with a quote from Hamlet
To be, or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,