Jinnberg
Member
- Apr 23, 2021
- 24
Whenever I start to draw or write, I often think to myself "is this how I'm going to spend my last year alive? Doing something I only do as a substitute for the validation I never got as a child? Something I hate doing?"
I don't really have any other hobbies, but drawing makes me miserable. Everything makes me miserable, so it's really not like drawing is the issue here. Doing anything is so painful and makes me want to die.
I spend my days laying in bed, waiting for my death date. I should have the money I need by next year to ctb successfully.
I'm always thinking of dying, not a day goes by where I don't violently sob at the thought of spending another second here.
I'm spending my last year alive doing things I hate, talking to people who wouldn't care if I live or die, but I don't know if I could even last another year like this. It's so unbearable.
I don't really have any other hobbies, but drawing makes me miserable. Everything makes me miserable, so it's really not like drawing is the issue here. Doing anything is so painful and makes me want to die.
I spend my days laying in bed, waiting for my death date. I should have the money I need by next year to ctb successfully.
I'm always thinking of dying, not a day goes by where I don't violently sob at the thought of spending another second here.
I'm spending my last year alive doing things I hate, talking to people who wouldn't care if I live or die, but I don't know if I could even last another year like this. It's so unbearable.