Discussion Is there something that ‘could’ change your need to ctb?

[Lostnotfound]

My personal need to ctb is based on the circumstances I am being forced to live in. those circumstances could be changed although I don't have the power to change them but another person does. if those circumstances were to change then I would have no reason to ctb. Therefore whether it's right or wrong morally, my life or death is being determined by someone else. Therefore my need to ctb 'could' change but it is highly unlikely to.

i wonder how many other people on the forum have circumstances that could be changed if only society cared To make those changes. Clearly those suffering with health conditions cannot be changed but what about everyone else?

 

[Oyoy]

My personal need to ctb is based on the circumstances I am being forced to live in. those circumstances could be changed although I don't have the power to change them but another person does. if those circumstances were to change then I would have no reason to ctb. Therefore whether it's right or wrong morally, my life or death is being determined by someone else. Therefore my need to ctb 'could' change but it is highly unlikely to.

i wonder how many other people on the forum have circumstances that could be changed if only society cared To make those changes. Clearly those suffering with health conditions cannot be changed but what about everyone else?

It's my living situation too. I hated my apartment and made an impulsive choice to get out. Now I'm in more discomfort. Because Ib was miserable I made another bad choice. I wish I could get back to my first less stressful miserable home.

 

[justfloating]

My personal need to ctb is based on the circumstances I am being forced to live in. those circumstances could be changed although I don't have the power to change them but another person does. if those circumstances were to change then I would have no reason to ctb. Therefore whether it's right or wrong morally, my life or death is being determined by someone else. Therefore my need to ctb 'could' change but it is highly unlikely to.

i wonder how many other people on the forum have circumstances that could be changed if only society cared To make those changes. Clearly those suffering with health conditions cannot be changed but what about everyone else?

my reasons to CTB are around other people. after I meet with X I will then either ctb or live life happily. im hoping to see X soon because not knowing what im gonna do is so hard. im having to put on a massive act of happiness so X will agree to see me and unknowingly decide my fate.

 

[acute]

If my severe tinnitus goes away I will not want to CBT.

 

[Lostnotfound]

It's my living situation too. I hated my apartment and made an impulsive choice to get out. Now I'm in more discomfort. Because Ib was miserable I made another bad choice. I wish I could get back to my first less stressful miserable home.

Do you think it's something you will be able to change? Is it a case of which comes first ctb or moving home? I think bad choices are common when we are suffering - I know I've made a few.

my reasons to CTB are around other people. after I meet with X I will then either ctb or live life happily. im hoping to see X soon because not knowing what im gonna do is so hard. im having to put on a massive act of happiness so X will agree to see me and unknowingly decide my fate.

I hear that. In my case X wont speak to me or meet me. I feel for you having to put on an act, that's incredible willpower

If my severe tinnitus goes away I will not want to CBT.

Is it cute able or is there anything that can be done?

 

[Grandexit]

Time machine? Not being born. Tossing baby me off a tall cliff? I dream of having died in infancy. Baby Me + a wood chipper sounds amazing. That's about all I can think of that would change my mind about self termination at this stage in my life.

 

[Jean4]

Same list always
1. Bring back Stan healthy so he wouldn't have CTB and we could have lived happily ever after.
2. Heal me from all my medical and mental health issues
3. Financial secure and get all my bills and these friggen student loans paid off.
4. Having friends and family

 

[rntmss]

If I could magically escape all my debts and go back in time before I ruined my marriage or just pull an Eternal Sunshine and have her wiped from my brain. I've accepted that I'll never be with my lovely wife ever again, but it doesn't make it any easier.

 

[SimplyTopHat]

• Take away the MH issues (BPD, Anxiety, Depression, cPTSD) &fix my self-esteem
• Fix my health problem &the pain that comes with it
• Take away my fear of intimacy/dating as a result of...
• Help me get out of debt &able to physically work full-time without pain

 

[Somebodylied]

The only thing that would keep me from ctb,and that still might not work, is if I had the means to move to another country. Lay low for a while and recover physically and mentally. And if I could live comfortably. Or maybe another state if I'm not able to move to another country.

 

[Lostnotfound]

The only thing that would keep me from ctb,and that still might not work, is if I had the means to move to another country. Lay low for a while and recover physically and mentally. And if I could live comfortably. Or maybe another state if I'm not able to move to another country.

Do it. If that's what you think gives you the best chance then do it.

 

[Quarky00]

$$$$ --> shed in the wood , heated & food .

The only thing that would keep me from ctb,and that still might not work, is if I had the means to move to another country. Lay low for a while and recover physically and mentally.

Exactly .

No time to recover when life slaps you constantly .

 

[drivingaround]

I'm not sure but I think having a lot of money might make a huge difference. I would be able to buy nice food, not spend every day worried about money, stop feeling guilty for being a financial burden, do a course on something I'm interested in, buy things I need but can't buy now, pay for therapy without constantly feeling panic inside about how it's so much money I can't afford, do fun things, go on holiday. Haha, get other meds I actually need for allergies, asthma etc that I don't get because of the cost.

Lol, basically having a lot of money would make it possible to see if I am totally enveloped in depression or whether it is also from boredom, stress, worry etc.

 

[k75]

If a whole list of things changed, it could work out. But no one thing, short of being able to time travel, will change much.

 

[oopswronglife]

Do it. If that's what you think gives you the best chance then do it.

If it were that simple...people would be doing it. You can't just "move" to another country. There are immigration rules, big costs, big changes. I've lived in a few places and it's not easy to move. Most people would find great difficulty moving within their own area and it costs a lot...another country is an entirely different animal. I've tried for a long time to permanently immigrate out of this shithole and something or someone always derailed it. Even for someone young and healthy who can suffer more challenges its hard...old and broken and poor...not happening.

99% of the people here are not here because there is a path they are just not taking. It's because even if there is a path they cannot access it.