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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,140
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ClaudeCTTE

ClaudeCTTE

Misunderstood...
Aug 22, 2023
264
Autumn
Almost all the CTB attempts I've had have been in this season.
I usually associate this season with school, as during this time I always had issues at school and it was when I felt ignored and excluded by my classmates.
In the second half of 2023, I didn't study (NEET), so my attempts were more related to my loneliness and other reasons.
 
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TiredOfAllThis

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2024
453
It's rather not a season but weather. When the sky is grey, I want to CTB.

And as for the time of day - the mornings are most difficult. I told that to my psychologist - she said mornings were hard for her too.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,913
Summer oddly enough
 
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grungy自殺

grungy自殺

Unloveable
Jan 9, 2024
160
Fall and Winter as the majority of the times that shitty things come or happen to my life it's those two seasons that would evoke fear of a emotion that i would be hitting a downward spiral by then.
 
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MyLifeisHell

MyLifeisHell

I'm in hell
Jul 23, 2022
4,724
Graduation season.
 
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astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
266
Winter for sure. Miserably cold/snowy/icy, sun sets at 5pm and is pitch black within 30 minutes, holiday season shits on you if you don't have a romantic partner, and the end of the year just reminds me of all I've failed to accomplish as time ticks by. I see all these people on social media with amazing holiday plans with their friends or spouse while I sit at home and stay lonely. I usually have a good time with family, but it makes me more depressed after it's done, because I know all our happy times won't last forever.

Some say spring sees the most suicides because people feel more depressed when the weather improves but their feelings don't change. Fortunately I typically feel MUCH better in the spring/summer or else I would be nonfunctional year round lol.
 
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INTJme

INTJme

Epeolatrist
Mar 22, 2024
336
Yes, Summer, Spring, Monsoon, Autumn, and Winter.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,401
I get the most depressed in the Spring especially during this month because so many (almost all) of the women I've ever liked have happened to be born in this month. This is also around the time when my seasonal allergies start coming in so that could be a factor too.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,445
Winter as things are dying, there is low sunlight and it gets dark early.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
No, I feel suicidal at the same intensity at any time of the year regardless of what season it is
 
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notindanger

notindanger

Experienced
Oct 7, 2023
223
Autumn and winter, sometimes spring. I hate it when it's cold. I hate it when it's dark, I hate the snow, I hate everything besides summer, I guess. I love the sun really deeply, so ironically, Im going to ctb in the summer
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,001
It used to be autumn but it has changed and I feel it all year.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,361
It gets worse in the spring with my reverse seasonal affective disorder but the holidays are what do it for me. My anxiety spikes November-December each year and by New Years I'm pretty much non-functional with depression and really want to ctb.

Supposedly, statistically suicides increase in the spring but everyone's different.
 
LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,362
No. I feel suicidal all the time.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I hate spring and summer
 
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Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
386
I hate spring and summer too.
For me, when the days are shorter, when it's dark and cold and grey and the weather is miserable, I can stay in my bubble. I'm more invisible. People are not outdoors being visibly happy and having fun, so I don't feel as alien and apart from the rest of the world.

When spring comes around, everything is brightening, like a new life cycle is beginning, and outdoors is full of people enjoying life. It reminds me of how my existence is different: my existence is dark, and cold, and miserable. So I prefer the days to mirror my feelings.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,854
I wish to cease existing no matter the time of year, in my case it's nothing to do with seasons rather I'd prefer to not exist as existence truly is so undesirable. There's nothing appealing about suffering in this meaningless existence especially as there is no limit as to how torturous it can get, I'd rather peacefully cease existing than suffer for decades just to be tormented by old age.

In my case I'd always see it as better that this existence permanently disappears into nothingness, I really wish I never existed at all, to be conscious and aware is an abomination, existence truly does just cause nothing but harm and all that comforts me is the thought of sleeping eternally, I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep.
 
Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
367
Always in the fall for me. I suspect that's because my birthday is in the fall, and I realize another year has gone by and my enjoyment of living has not improved at all. 61 years old and every day I wake up wishing I hadn't.
Cheers
 

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