i could tell you, but then you'd go and read them, implement those ideas into your brain, and your suicide would be guaranteed.
i can't have that on my conscience, so i'm sorry.
but since you asked, here's some guidance: don't read those philosophers, you can't unlearn any of it. instead, try to create your own meaning and values for life. language is more dangerous than you think.
p.s. ever heard of pandora's box? there is a good reason it's best kept closed.
Well, like Emil Cioran said.
"It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late."
He also said.
"The fact that life has no meaning is a reason to live, moreover, the only one"
Schopenhauer, Zapffe, Cioran... all very pessimistic, and still lived to the end of their lives, so don't sell me short on that one.
Ironically, i found the best argument for someone so angry and disillusioned with the world to the point of committing suicide in the words of G. K. Chesterton.
"Not only is suicide a sin, it is the sin. It is the ultimate and absolute evil, the refusal to take an interest in existence; the refusal to take the oath of loyalty to life. The man who kills a man, kills a man. The man who kills himself, kills all men; as far as he is concerned he wipes out the world. His act is worse (symbolically considered) than any rape or dynamite outrage. For it destroys all buildings: it insults all women. The thief is satisfied with diamonds; but the suicide is not: that is his crime. He cannot be bribed, even by the blazing stones of the Celestial City. The thief compliments the things he steals, if not the owner of them. But the suicide insults everything on earth by not stealing it. He defiles every flower by refusing to live for its sake. There is not a tiny creature in the cosmos at whom his death is not a sneer. When a man hangs himself on a tree, the leaves might fall off in anger and the birds fly away in fury: for each has received a personal affront. Of course there may be pathetic emotional excuses for the act. There often are for rape, and there almost always are for dynamite. But if it comes to clear ideas and the intelligent meaning of things, then there is much more rational and philosophic truth in the burial at the cross-roads and the stake driven through the body, than in Mr. Archer's suicidal automatic machines. There is a meaning in burying the suicide apart. The man's crime is different from other crimes -- for it makes even crimes impossible."
That is the closest i have heard someone describe revenge on the universe, funny, admonishing against the act and instead giving you a metaphysical "weapon" against existence. but it's still not a justification...
So, don't be afraid, if you are in a position to tell me please do, i will be careful with the box
Not sure. But something to consider, which I've always thought about, is the harm caused when someone does die by suicide. The decision does have moral consequences for other people in your life, those who knew you, friends, family, etc. It causes them trauma, and leaves them "holding the bag."
So if we look at...like...basic moral philosophy- the general consensus is that one ought not to do harm. So if death by suicide causes trauma to others, and you therefore cause harm to them... it becomes difficult I think to defend from an "a priori" moral level.
Albert Camus said.
"There is but one truly serious philosophical problem, and that is suicide."
And then just dismissed suicide as invalid and a rejection of the "absurd" as he called it, not dwelling or offering further explanation, I get it, it is a very taboo subject, more so on his time, but still, it sounds like he just chickened out.
Aren't we the owners of our life? Shouldn't we have agency over it? This are valid questions, I have heard all the arguments against taking your own life, you mentioned a strong one yourself, don't cause harm unto others, but the arguments FOR agency over your own life are just buried, it is a very one sided argument, that's the reason I came to this forums, if we can't explore this ideas here, where then?