Is the time set?

[Kamiotesoro]

I've been debating on CTB for about 6-7 years now and I have finally made up my mind and set a date for myself. It's like watching a ticking time bomb and not actually caring about it, to be honest And all in all this decision has brought me to a much lighter and better place than ever before. It feels like as if life has a meaning after all. And reading thought people's threads a majority of whom try to commit seem to be nervous or scared but all I'm left feeling is joy and peacefulness.
And my question is: What did setting a date evoke in you?)

 

[akrasia]

I felt at peace knowing that my suffering would end soon. But at the same time I felt anxious. Rushing to finish things before the date comes is quite stressful. It's like trying to finish work before the deadline, it's not fun.
I'm planning to ctb soon and right now I feel quite anxious. I always feel anxiety before a big day. But my mind has been set and I'm not thinking about the future anymore. I'm at peace with my decision.

 

[moonbyul]

I felt at peace knowing that my suffering would end soon. But at the same time I felt anxious. Rushing to finish things before the date comes is quite stressful. It's like trying to finish work before the deadline, it's not fun.
I'm planning to ctb soon and right now I feel quite anxious. I always feel anxiety before a big day. But my mind has been set and I'm not thinking about the future anymore. I'm at peace with my decision.

Wow you summed up my feelings so well. That's exactly how I feel, down to always feeling anxiety before a big day.