toxicjester

toxicjester

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Dec 11, 2023
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I'm not sure that SN would be the way I'd ctb, but I want to look at all my options. It seems like the preferred choice and the more "peaceful" option, but when I read about other's experiences it doesn't sound that peaceful.

Nevermind all the prep work that has to be done, when you're taking the actual SN it sounds like people get extremely sick and nauseous (which is fair, you're essentially ingesting poison). I know people take AE's but it still sounds really bad.

I know when I get sick I turn into a crybaby. Everything makes me feel so overwhelmed and I cry when I'm even in a little bit of pain while I'm sick.

Maybe it's just that this method isn't for me, even though it'd be nice to have as an option, but I was still curious if it really is "peaceful"?
 
dontlook

dontlook

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Nov 13, 2024
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I agree that sn doesn't sound very peaceful to me personally. But I intensely hate vomiting and it always comes out my nose and it's a whole thing. So it's not right for me, but I know others don't mind it as much.

I'd just rather hang bc I know it's possible to pass out very quickly. Another user posted their sn attempt the other night and the last comment they made was about soiling themselves.
 
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toxicjester

toxicjester

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I agree that sn doesn't sound very peaceful to me personally. But I intensely hate vomiting and it always comes out my nose and it's a whole thing. So it's not right for me, but I know others don't mind it as much.

I'd just rather hang bc I know it's possible to pass out very quickly. Another user posted their sn attempt the other night and the last comment they made was about soiling themselves.
That's so real, being nauseous isn't my favorite thing and maybe it's my autism or maybe that I'm really too sensitive for this world, but being sick even a little sucks hardcore.

My preferred method would be CO poisoning but there's so much that could go wrong with that so part of me feels like I'd have to go back to the drawing board, I dunno

I also did see that thread you're talking about! I do hope they found peace, although their last comment was interesting. I know some people soil themselves after they die so I wonder if that was the SN specifically or just them passing on
 
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PhDone

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I agree that sn doesn't sound very peaceful to me personally. But I intensely hate vomiting and it always comes out my nose and it's a whole thing. So it's not right for me, but I know others don't mind it as much.

I'd just rather hang bc I know it's possible to pass out very quickly. Another user posted their sn attempt the other night and the last comment they made was about soiling themselves.
No way, soiling?! 🤦‍♀️ can you link the thread.
 
TheHolySword

TheHolySword

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Nov 22, 2024
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It's my planned method but I definitely have reservations and worries. It just seems more peaceful than every other method. I don't like being sick and I detest nausea and vomiting but hopefully (with a little luck) I might avoid it or at least not experience too much of it. My hope is that I'll pass out before it even starts
 
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toxicjester

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It's my planned method but I definitely have reservations and worries. It just seems more peaceful than every other method. I don't like being sick and I detest nausea and vomiting but hopefully (with a little luck) I might avoid it or at least not experience too much of it. My hope is that I'll pass out before it even starts
That's fair. It's difficult to find a nice way to die with no strings attached, otherwise this website prolly wouldn't exist lol. I know it can be quick, at least compared to other methods so I hope if/when you do use it it's as seamless as possible!
 
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Thank you! I hope you find what you're looking for as well and I hope it brings you peace
 
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PhDone

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I guess with SN once you drink theres no way back. Maybe FS is the same but PS def has a back out before pass out.
 
dontlook

dontlook

watch out. the gap in the door
Nov 13, 2024
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For sure. It would be interesting to have a few things to taste after taking the sn to see if it changed anything else. At least, I would find it interesting if I was doing that method but theres no way I could.
 
toxicjester

toxicjester

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I guess with SN once you drink theres no way back. Maybe FS is the same but PS def has a back out before pass out.
I think that's one of the main appeals, that'd it'd be hard to save you from it, although I feel like I remember seeing at least one attempt that failed(maybe they called for help?) that used SN but I dunno

I don't think it'd do any sort of hanging. It scares me too much. I also know someone who attempted via FS and they're still around today.
 
dontlook

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I think that's one of the main appeals, that'd it'd be hard to save you from it, although I feel like I remember seeing at least one attempt that failed(maybe they called for help?) that used SN but I dunno

I don't think it'd do any sort of hanging. It scares me too much. I also know someone who attempted via FS and they're still around today.
Do you know what failed in their FS setup?
 
toxicjester

toxicjester

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For sure. It would be interesting to have a few things to taste after taking the sn to see if it changed anything else. At least, I would find it interesting if I was doing that method but theres no way I could.
Yea I'm still on the fence on this method but it's certainly be interesting to see what else tastes different, although I feel like putting anything else aside from what you need on your stomach for it could potentially fuck with it
 
dontlook

dontlook

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Nov 13, 2024
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Yea I'm still on the fence on this method but it's certainly be interesting to see what else tastes different, although I feel like putting anything else aside from what you need on your stomach for it could potentially fuck with it
Yeah definitely wouldn't want to start eating or anything, but just a taste of a few things would surely be ok if you had enough time
 
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toxicjester

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Do you know what failed in their FS setup?
I'm not sure if they had fully planned it out or if it was on a whim, since I didn't know them when this happened. Also, they had used a belt and had nailed it to the ceiling, but when the belt was supporting all of their weight it pulled the nails out also. I think after that happened they were too upset to try again.

They still have the belt they used for it in their closet.
Yeah definitely wouldn't want to start eating or anything, but just a taste of a few things would surely be ok if you had enough time
I think if it were me, I'd nibble on some of my comfort foods or something along with having a big seal plush next to me (although to be fair any ctb plan I make will include a big seal plush lol)
 
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I'm not sure if they had fully planned it out or if it was on a whim, since I didn't know them when this happened. Also, they had used a belt and had nailed it to the ceiling, but when the belt was supporting all of their weight it pulled the nails out also. I think after that happened they were too upset to try again.

They still have the belt they used for it in their closet.

I think if it were me, I'd nibble on some of my comfort foods or something along with having a big seal plush next to me (although to be fair any ctb plan I make will include a big seal plush lol)
Aww I'm happy you have your big seal plush! I have a seal plush that I made for my partner, we both love him
 
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Aww I'm happy you have your big seal plush! I have a seal plush that I made for my partner, we both love him
That sounds so cute! I wish I could make one, I used to make plushies but my sewing machine broke and it's hard for me to find motivation to make anything art related :,)

And I don't have one yet unfortunately, but I found one online that I think is perfect! As soon as my next paycheck hits I'm gonna get her :3
 
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I guess with SN once you drink theres no way back. Maybe FS is the same but PS def has a back out before pass out.

Unless you get administered methylene blue in time which reverses the effect for SN
 
dontlook

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That sounds so cute! I wish I could make one, I used to make plushies but my sewing machine broke and it's hard for me to find motivation to make anything art related :,)

And I don't have one yet unfortunately, but I found one online that I think is perfect! As soon as my next paycheck hits I'm gonna get her :3



Ahhh ! Then I'm happy about your future seal plush 💟

It's so cool that you used to make plushies. The one I made I did by hand and it's very simple but it still took me forever
 
toxicjester

toxicjester

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Ahhh ! Then I'm happy about your future seal plush 💟

It's so cool that you used to make plushies. The one I made I did by hand and it's very simple but it still took me forever
Thank you! I'm v excited, I didn't think I'd find one this big and also laying down the way I want!

And maybe one day I'll post pics! I'm worried about that tho since I used to sell them and post them online, although I didn't make that many (maybe like 10 total).

I'm sure the one you made is super adorable and friend shaped c:
 
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Thank you! I'm v excited, I didn't think I'd find one this big and also laying down the way I want!

And maybe one day I'll post pics! I'm worried about that tho since I used to sell them and post them online, although I didn't make that many (maybe like 10 total).

I'm sure the one you made is super adorable and friend shaped c:
That's rad!

And that would be cool

If you're ok with it I could send pics of our seal via a conversation!
 
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toxicjester

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Unless you get administered methylene blue in time which reverses the effect for SN
I always forget that's the thing you get to reverse the effects, there's still so many questions I have and a good amount I don't know about this method, I prolly still have to do my own research. That being said it's also nice to be able to discuss it with other people!
That's rad!

And that would be cool

If you're ok with it I could send pics of our seal via a conversation!
Id be v cool with that! I'm still at work so I might not be as responsive but I'd love to see!
 
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orbwithinorb

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yeah I'm with you in that it doesn't seem all too pleasant. There's a lot of cope on this forum about it not being so bad which I guess is understandable.
 
toxicjester

toxicjester

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Dec 11, 2023
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yeah I'm with you in that it doesn't seem all too pleasant. There's a lot of cope on this forum about it not being so bad which I guess is understandable.
It's hard to find a way that isn't at least a little uncomfortable. I imagine that for some people, it's the best bang for their buck, maybe just not for me, but I'm trying to be open lol
 
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PhDone

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I think that's one of the main appeals, that'd it'd be hard to save you from it, although I feel like I remember seeing at least one attempt that failed(maybe they called for help?) that used SN but I dunno

I don't think it'd do any sort of hanging. It scares me too much. I also know someone who attempted via FS and they're still around today.
Jeez, how did they fail FS?
 
toxicjester

toxicjester

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Dec 11, 2023
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Jeez, how did they fail FS?
I talked about it earlier but I'll copy paste!

"I'm not sure if they had fully planned it out or if it was on a whim, since I didn't know them when this happened. Also, they had used a belt and had nailed it to the ceiling, but when the belt was supporting all of their weight it pulled the nails out also. I think after that happened they were too upset to try again."

Also they were a teen when this happened, not to say that teenagers haven't ctb'd but I feel like maybe there just wasn't as much knowledge back then
 
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