is looking for a painless method just an excuse

[hurb]

Im starting to doubt myself lately , do I actually want to ctb or am I looking for excuses to avoid it, like sure pain is rough but it would last few minutes and its much more worth it than suffering every waking day.
I also keep telling myself that i dont want to end up with brain damage , it just feels like im avoiding committing

 

[soul2realm]

It's the SI effect. It's a built in self preservation system in our genes. I am no expert but sometimes taking a step back and simply breathing does help in seeing things clearly. Hope it helps.