Darkover
Angelic
- Jul 29, 2021
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Life has always been perceived as the greatest gift on earth. But the are many in this world who see it as a curse. In my experience I see life as an ugly curse disguised as a beautiful blessing. You're sent here to be tested and suffer enormous amounts of pain and grief until you finally get that sweet relief of death. Happiness and love are the biggest lies told, it seems like they are fairy tales that help children go to sleep. Is it truly a gift when you have no say in if you want to be born or not? When I was 18 years old I realised there's absolutely no meaning to life. You have to find your own meaning and yet 19 years later I'm still struggling to find meaning. I've always felt like I was a mistake and I should've been aborted or something along those lines. What's the point in living when you've never felt like you've belonged anywhere. It's like being a piece of puzzle that doesn't fit into any picture and no matter how hard it tries it can't seem to fit anywhere. If you've finished a puzzle and there were extra pieces that didn't belong wouldn't you discard them? Whether it's family or any group of friends I've felt like I don't make any difference or impact like things would continue on regardless of wether I existed or not. I could be in a room full of people and still feel like the loneliest person in the world.
It's definitely not some wonderful gift but neither is it a test and I don't think we're 'sent'. We're all here by chance and none of us asked to be born. Some get lucky, a lot don't. For many, and I include all forms of life, it's a fairly miserable and difficult existence at best.
It's definitely not some wonderful gift but neither is it a test and I don't think we're 'sent'. We're all here by chance and none of us asked to be born. Some get lucky, a lot don't. For many, and I include all forms of life, it's a fairly miserable and difficult existence at best.