is it valid for me to feel this way

[mittymittens]

at end very end of june, my friend admits to me he may have heard my ex friend, (who emotionally dumped too much ab her life even when i told her it affected me, and even SA'ed me at some point,) that she has been telling lies to him saying i'm going around telling people she's selfharming. he also told me, there may have been a chance that he misheard her.

yesterday night, he randomly messages me telling me he's got good news saying that he misheard her and that she said that i, went to the guidance counselor to tell them about her problems. which is still untrue but obviously not as more stressing as the first lie.
what went down was that, she stressed me to the final days of us about her homelife, to the point where i was screaming and crying and my family witnessed it, stressing them also out.

my mom later interrogated me as it was obvious that somebody did something to me, as i was in Not in a good place and convinced at the time i was gonna ctb, i told her everything that was going on with me and her and what she was telling me that stressed me out. i do regret telling her a bit but it is what it is.

my mom felt the need to call a guidance counselor and tell them what was going on (despite me saying not to say anything but it was Her choice)

my ex friend was called down to guidance, eventually texting me if i had told my mom what happened and that she was, i quote, "glad that you did, we both need help, we are in deep depression right now"

i don't get why she may be twisting the story now as she told me countless times it was Okay and that she really needed the help and she was *Not* mad at all and she reassured me multiple times that day.

Back to my current friend talking to her to this day (knowing what all she did to me, including SA). even if he may have misheard, i just do not get why, last night i got so triggered by hearing her name, when he texted me, i started shaking a lot and was about to have a panic attack.
i also honestly don't get how he mishears her saying "they are going around telling people i'm selfharming" to "they told the guidance counselor about my problems"

i also feel so anxious about the fact that her and my friend are conversing about me, which my ex friend is most likely not saying positive about me.

i remember texting him last night, showing my discomfort still and how i was still paranoid, he responds in a paragraph saying, he felt bad for telling me and what he can do to fix and how originally he wanted to fix things between me and my ex friend but now sees as impossible. i respond and told him that why is he conversing to her about me- which he didn't respond to and i just remember deleting the app where i message my friends and him.

i don't know why i'm feeling this way i should be happy, i'm not, and i feel like i'm overreacting, so am i even valid to feel this way or should i just stop

i even invited him to my circle with friends who i feel safe and now i'm not sure if i'm even comfortable talking to those group chats right now

 

[AShipinthedark]

Your enemy has committed a campaign of disinformation against you. Then you were forced into actions you did not consent to through that disinformation.

Nah I think your pretty valid.

 

[mittymittens]

Your enemy has committed a campaign of disinformation against you. Then you were forced into actions you did not consent to through that disinformation.

Nah I think you're pretty valid.

but even if she isn't spreading lies about me going around telling that she self harms because he said he did mishear and that was the good newsa

but for some reason i still feel so triggered talking about her unless i'm the one talking about her after that day where he told me that she may be spreading misinformation about me

which he said was a mishear so why am i still feeling this way