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xeno112007

Void
Jul 18, 2025
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I have my parents but I can't share things with them. Same thing goes for gf and friends. I feel like I will never feel true connection with anyone. I think I am brainwashed about relationship by movies. Movies portray friendship and everything as something beautiful but in reality it's just a game. You have to think every move if you message up you will lose badly.
 
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moon2bright

worthless
Apr 11, 2026
22
It's possible but pretty improbable. As far as suicidality goes, there's really no one I can talk to honestly. Whatever I tell my wife or therapist is heavily edited.
 
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PanaxMan

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Apr 11, 2023
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I have my parents but I can't share things with them. Same thing goes for gf and friends. I feel like I will never feel true connection with anyone. I think I am brainwashed about relationship by movies. Movies portray friendship and everything as something beautiful but in reality it's just a game. You have to think every move if you message up you will lose badly.
With ctb probably no one tbh imo
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,974
With anything in life, a short answer is no.

Now, the long answer is so much more complicated than just a flippant yes or no. Not only with the human experience but with everything everywhere, not just on this earth, there might be a template BUT each and every second can have something, someone, the list goes on, a wrinkle or blimp or curve, name it I guess, and a new beginning, outcome, there in again name it, will come of it.

I always get such a chuckle when I hear: "humans are the master of their universe", yum NO!

We can plan and invent and such and BANG, like me, gall bladder cancer out of the blue, and like the doctor said along these lines: "you lost the roll of the dice on this one".

Yep, who knows.

That is what arrogance, greed and the like is such a evil stance.

Now ctb, that is a VERY personal choice and should NEVER EVER be a trend, or so and so did it is one and done and each and every soul should take stock in THEMSELVES and 100% block out everything else.

Be it a boy or girlfriend, university grades, a position loss, whatever, each and every soul should with ZERO outside influence make their own path, share it with anyone else. no.

NOW on here, a maybe, as far as hashing through aspects with like souls and getting clarity, BUT the outside general population, HELL NO!

Even then, NO ONE on here should ever influence another soul's life, future anything. Guidance is one thing but following the leader or trendy, HELL NO!

We are sentient and with that comes power, decisions and somewhat our own outcome with nature, the universe, etc. throwing in a curve ball on occasion.

Walter
 
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Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
228
I think the chances are pretty low.
I can't really open up to my parents about anything because we see eye to eye on almost nothing.
they think my pain is fake, it's too hard to make them understand, so I've decided to give up
 
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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
179
I had someone. Ever since losing them there's quite literally nobody. I feel lonely in a way that's impossible to describe.
 
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xeno112007

Void
Jul 18, 2025
122
With anything in life, a short answer is no.

Now, the long answer is so much more complicated than just a flippant yes or no. Not only with the human experience but with everything everywhere, not just on this earth, there might be a template BUT each and every second can have something, someone, the list goes on, a wrinkle or blimp or curve, name it I guess, and a new beginning, outcome, there in again name it, will come of it.

I always get such a chuckle when I hear: "humans are the master of their universe", yum NO!

We can plan and invent and such and BANG, like me, gall bladder cancer out of the blue, and like the doctor said along these lines: "you lost the roll of the dice on this one".

Yep, who knows.

That is what arrogance, greed and the like is such a evil stance.

Now ctb, that is a VERY personal choice and should NEVER EVER be a trend, or so and so did it is one and done and each and every soul should take stock in THEMSELVES and 100% block out everything else.

Be it a boy or girlfriend, university grades, a position loss, whatever, each and every soul should with ZERO outside influence make their own path, share it with anyone else. no.

NOW on here, a maybe, as far as hashing through aspects with like souls and getting clarity, BUT the outside general population, HELL NO!

Even then, NO ONE on here should ever influence another soul's life, future anything. Guidance is one thing but following the leader or trendy, HELL NO!

We are sentient and with that comes power, decisions and somewhat our own outcome with nature, the universe, etc. throwing in a curve ball on occasion.

Walter
that's really deep. I fell into the trap of movies, which romanticise, relationships. Like you said they have twist and turns like everything in life.

I assume in the second paragraph you are talking about how ctb plan should not be shared with people since they may influence your decision but I get influenced by people because of my "own beliefs". I like to be a victim of manipulation because I either believe I have no control over my life or he, who is the manipulator of my decision, is more important. If I kill someone then I should be the one responsible for it. I can't blame the manipulator. So I think every action should be considered as something we made by our own beliefs.
 
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