annxietty
“Is there no way out of the mind?”
- Mar 27, 2023
- 150
Tomorrow Im going outside (in 7-8h), I went outside last week and everything went fine, Im still very nervous, like I want to cry just thinking of being outside makes me want to go to the bathroom... Im going with my father, I wont even have to get in public transport, but Im so afraid, Im going to renew my identity card and that is something you have to do in person (unless you are older than 25, which Im not)
Feeling like this over something so stupid makes me feel ridiculous, useless... And going with my dad is not that reassuring, I mean, I dont trust him enough for his presence to be calming, in fact because he hates waiting in lines (for different reasons as me, Im afraid of waiting in lines he just hates it because is a waste of time) and waiting in general he starts to complain about everything and starts moving all over the place leaving me alone... seeing someone fidgeting makes me feel anxious as fuck...
Writing this Im feeling even more anxious, so I will stop.... if anyone cares I can update tomorrow... hopefully everything goes normal and I will be a little step closer to finally cure my agoraphobia, huh
Feeling like this over something so stupid makes me feel ridiculous, useless... And going with my dad is not that reassuring, I mean, I dont trust him enough for his presence to be calming, in fact because he hates waiting in lines (for different reasons as me, Im afraid of waiting in lines he just hates it because is a waste of time) and waiting in general he starts to complain about everything and starts moving all over the place leaving me alone... seeing someone fidgeting makes me feel anxious as fuck...
Writing this Im feeling even more anxious, so I will stop.... if anyone cares I can update tomorrow... hopefully everything goes normal and I will be a little step closer to finally cure my agoraphobia, huh