Is it easier to CTB if you're isolated (or if you pushed away) everyone you love?

[Sadness20]

I'm in a pretty good health care system but my need to CTB is just getting stronger and stronger. Should I isolate myself and push everyone away. Does that make it easier?

 

[jodes2]

It definitely makes it easier

 

[Suicidebydeath]

It might but it seems like you'll suffer so much. It doesn't seem a good solution in general. I'm sorry you're feeling this way.

 

[IntoTheLight]

It will definitely make it easier but I don't recommend it. It's good to keep your options open should you change your mind. Self-sabotaging in general will increase the urge to CTB but comes at a big cost obviously.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be easier to ctb for those who don't have anyone that they are leaving behind. When you have no one close to you then there is no one to be affected by your death and you only have yourself to think of. Many people struggle with ctb because of feeling guilt for leaving others behind, it can be difficult being in that situation. After all, only you know what you should do, but I wish you the best.

 

[JustSwingingTheD]

I'm in a pretty good health care system but my need to CTB is just getting stronger and stronger. Should I isolate myself and push everyone away. Does that make it easier?

I don't know but if you are feeling like killing yourself then chances are you should isolate yourself no matter what.

 

[lionetta12]

I'm in a pretty good health care system but my need to CTB is just getting stronger and stronger. Should I isolate myself and push everyone away. Does that make it easier?

I'm not sure, the people I love actively hurt me on almost a daily basis and that helps push me to CTB.

 

[Kazeeemoo12]

Way easier, If you actually manage do cut them off and not have any feelings for them anymore.

 

[SeeminglyFine]

I guess so, when i attempted, even though my brain was deprived of oxygen and was half passed out, my brain was still generating 100 thoughts a second, some about the upcoming unknown, but a lot of images in my mind of imagining my mom in despair or attempting suicide aswell.

Now when people who are close to me are going against me, my brain automatically goes to the thinking pattern that this will make it easier to ctb, even though i know its not that serious of a confrontation, its like i get motivated by my family's lack of compassion at times. Strange feeling.

 

[Shadow Life]

It will definitely make it easier but I don't recommend it. It's good to keep your options open should you change your mind. Self-sabotaging in general will increase the urge to CTB but comes at a big cost obviously.

Absolutely. Please don't do that on purpose. If you care anything at all for the people you want to push away, don't do it to them, or yourself. The suffering it will cause them -and you- may be unbearable. There's no going back - I've been there and I've done it (not purposefully, though.)

I guess so, when i attempted, even though my brain was deprived of oxygen and was half passed out, my brain was still generating 100 thoughts a second, some about the upcoming unknown, but a lot of images in my mind of imagining my mom in despair or attempting suicide aswell.

Now when people who are close to me are going against me, my brain automatically goes to the thinking pattern that this will make it easier to ctb, even though i know its not that serious of a confrontation, its like i get motivated by my family's lack of compassion at times. Strange feeling.

I felt the exact same way - when I still had people.. I'm on the other side of that now, but it turns out that even though I'm no longer triggered by 'family' I can still be triggered by people (like neighbours) who make me think about ctb. I've come to realize that it's not 100% the fault of others' words or actions, but instead how I react to them.. which is why the problem is actually mine to deal with and heal from.