BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
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I still have my SN and the necessary supplies, but now I'm leaning towards partial. I was against the idea of it for about a year, after seeing pictures of people who hanged themselves (watching the blood pool....eugh). But now it's beginning to sound really, really desirable. Maybe it's because I've been seeing people who have hanged themselves and because I think that's how my coworker recently died. But, as usual, I worry about stupid shit: am I being ambivalent? Am I being stupid for thinking of changing my method?
Also, finding your carotids is difficult. Despite being against hanging, I still would try to find my carotids and have been trying spur-of-the-moment for months. I think I find the sweet spot, I compress, and I just get a headache. I think last time my vision dulled a bit, but that was probably all in my head lmao.
Also, finding your carotids is difficult. Despite being against hanging, I still would try to find my carotids and have been trying spur-of-the-moment for months. I think I find the sweet spot, I compress, and I just get a headache. I think last time my vision dulled a bit, but that was probably all in my head lmao.