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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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The dates I pick are often far off. But realizing I can just hop in my car and drive to the bridge any given day feels kinda liberating. It's several hours away though, which means time for regret unless I tell myself I'm just visiting the bridge.
 
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sharky

sharky

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Dec 15, 2021
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I imagine it's easier when on impulse rather than setting a date. Whenever I set a date for anything I just keep pushing it back. If you feel like doing it I would just do it while you're in that mindset rather than wait for it.
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
I imagine it's easier when on impulse rather than setting a date. Whenever I set a date for anything I just keep pushing it back. If you feel like doing it I would just do it while you're in that mindset rather than wait for it.
I would need to be in that mindset for several hours. My moods often shift.
 
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its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
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Impulse is the way for me. Trying to specify time and date feels like pressure and anxiety and hesitation. Got my "kit" all assembled and ready to go. Just whenever, really. It feels great.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I feel like if someone tries to stick to a specific date then the SI is more likely to get in the way, so I do think that many people ctb on impulse when the pain of living gets to be unbearable and they cannot deal with any more suffering. However, I would personally only go through with ctb if I was confident that the method would succeed, I do not think that impulse ctb is the best idea if the method is not properly planned as there is a higher chance of failure. Ctb is very difficult after all.
 
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thedaywillcome

thedaywillcome

I will leave soon
Apr 2, 2022
358
I prefere done in ,,trance".
 
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luci4

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Apr 13, 2022
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I feel like if someone tries to stick to a specific date then the SI is more likely to get in the way, so I do think that many people ctb on impulse when the pain of living gets to be unbearable and they cannot deal with any more suffering. However, I would personally only go through with ctb if I was confident that the method would succeed, I do not think that impulse ctb is the best idea if the method is not properly planned as there is a higher chance of failure. Ctb is very difficult after all.
What does SI mean?
 
thedaywillcome

thedaywillcome

I will leave soon
Apr 2, 2022
358
But I dont opt out impulsivity.
What does SI mean?
I feel like if someone tries to stick to a specific date then the SI is more likely to get in the way, so I do think that many people ctb on impulse when the pain of living gets to be unbearable and they cannot deal with any more suffering. However, I would personally only go through with ctb if I was confident that the method would succeed, I do not think that impulse ctb is the best idea if the method is not properly planned as there is a higher chance of failure. Ctb is very difficult after all.
Either its done in trance or impulsuvity.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,770
What does SI mean?
It is an abbreviation for the survival instinct, which means that we are programmed to survive and live, it is the way we have evolved. It is why suicide is so difficult as our SI tries to stop us.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
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Impulsive attempts seem to have a good success rate. I guess when the mood is right they go for it. SI must not have much power over them.
 
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luci4

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Apr 13, 2022
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It is an abbreviation for the survival instinct, which means that we are programmed to survive and live, it is the way we have evolved. It is why suicide is so difficult as our SI tries to stop us.
Thank u
 
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Niko66

Niko66

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Dec 6, 2021
353
I absolutely dread the thought of suriving an attempt so for me the answer is a big no, I would want it to be well planned, but I am also a very cautious, deliberative, etc person so... kinda to be expected.

Neither does it help for me that the more reliable and impulsive methods also happen to be more violent.
 
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Bong-Hit-Transplant

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May 11, 2021
84
Impulse is the way for me. Trying to specify time and date feels like pressure and anxiety and hesitation. Got my "kit" all assembled and ready to go. Just whenever, really. It feels great.
This is kind of my plan too. Just give myself a few month-long window to go through with it.

I've tried setting a date a few times and the dread just get worse and worse until a few days beforehand when I call it off. Part of me is afraid I'll never go through with it if I just let myself keep putting it off for some unspecified time in the future, but it's not like setting a date helped much either.
 
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blahblahuser1174

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Dec 21, 2021
13
yes impulse is important you need to be out of your mind. thats why im going to get my rope ready right before i check my grades so if they're bad i will be able to follow through bc i'll be so upset
 
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Someone123

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Oct 19, 2021
3,875
The dates I pick are often far off. But realizing I can just hop in my car and drive to the bridge any given day feels kinda liberating. It's several hours away though, which means time for regret unless I tell myself I'm just visiting the bridge.
I've done a lot of research on bridges and if a good option was close enough I would use it. The Golden Gate Bridge seems way too heavily patrolled for me, but something comparable would work- 220 feet into water has a 99% success rate. A few have survived this though, and at least one of these has posted on youtube about this. The height and the landing surface matter- a benefit of water is that drowning is a backup plan.
 
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Treeline589

Experienced
Dec 14, 2021
234
I'm beginning to think acting on impulse would be better. Especially now that I have a pretty reliable method. O think planning a date puts too much pressure on the whole act
 
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Someone123

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Oct 19, 2021
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I'm beginning to think acting on impulse would be better. Especially now that I have a pretty reliable method. O think planning a date puts too much pressure on the whole act
It could be because at a certain time you may be more ready, but whether this would work well could depend on the method- would you want to share what method you are considering?
 
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Someone123

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Oct 19, 2021
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I have N- really just a matter of taking it and not over thinking it
That sounds like the best method if you can get it, it's worth it to see if it ever fails based on posts to try to prevent a failure, but it seems like you are in good shape to find peace.
 
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SparkleWater

SparkleWater

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Oct 13, 2020
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why buy n when i have a bath robe belt and a doorknob
 
Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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Impulse is the way for me. Trying to specify time and date feels like pressure and anxiety and hesitation. Got my "kit" all assembled and ready to go. Just whenever, really. It feels great.
Yeah it causes pressure and anxiety and ruins any feeling of freedom
 
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Riddle

Student
Mar 25, 2022
124
Yea I agree with the posters in this thread, have a general timeframe and a plan on how you are going to do it, but wait until you have one of those days taht you never want to have again and it will make it much easier to go through with it.
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
Yea I agree with the posters in this thread, have a general timeframe and a plan on how you are going to do it, but wait until you have one of those days taht you never want to have again and it will make it much easier to go through with it.
It's funny. Pro lifers say during such days that you should live because you'll miss out on a future day that goes well. But the bad days don't stop and they occur more frequently.
 
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ineedrope

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Jan 19, 2022
44
Everytime I do something impulsively I regret it. I wouldn't want to act on impulse and CTB.
 
its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
Everytime I do something impulsively I regret it. I wouldn't want to act on impulse and CTB.
My mentality is - I've already decided I want to CTB despite existing hesitations that normally keep me from acting on it. So it's not true impulsivity, more like acting in an emotional state where I don't care about my normal hesitations. Possibly regrettable? Absolutely. Probably regrettable, even. But I don't care. The goal is to wind up dead, where (hopefully) there's no consciousness whatsoever.
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
My mentality is - I've already decided I want to CTB despite existing hesitations that normally keep me from acting on it. So it's not true impulsivity, more like acting in an emotional state where I don't care about my normal hesitations. Possibly regrettable? Absolutely. Probably regrettable, even. But I don't care. The goal is to wind up dead, where (hopefully) there's no consciousness whatsoever.
If you've thought about it for years, then it's a given your subconscious has already decided on it, right?
 
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