Venting Is depression my fault?

[-FrozenRobot-]

So I have bad anger issues and some other stuff. Once I broke a bowl coz my mom said something mean to me. Since then my parents started looking at me in a disgusting way. The looks in their eyes says it all "you mentally ill bast**d."
Last Sunday I went to my friend's house since he called me. I actually didn't want to but we are friends for like 13 years now and I'm not good at saying no. While we were taking he suddenly said "dude you give off dark vibes".
WTF!!!!!
Yall I know I'm a burden but please don't hurt me this way. I swear I'll leave you all one day. You can dance on my grave.

 

[motel rooms]

No, it isn't your fault. We don't get to choose our personalities & afflictions...

 

[Rogue Proxy]

Depression is never your fault. It's the other humans' fault for berating and excluding you, along with demanding your entertainment and perfect conformity to their cheerful appearances and perspectives.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

What happened when you broke the bowl? Are you prone to these types of outbursts?

Yeah, I've had plenty of 'friends' who used my dark vibes as an excuse to treat me as last choice. I can smile for 364 days of the year and they'll only remember the one day I got upset. Meanwhile they can stomp around being downers all the time and no one bats an eye because theirs is normie anger.

Depression isn't your fault. You sound highly strung, you might want to try to figure out why.

 

[FuneralCry]

No of course it is not your fault. None of us asked to be alive in the first place so if you think about it that way, nothing is really our fault as we were forced to exist without choice. Other people can be so cruel, I'm sorry you are treat that way by them.

 

[motel rooms]

You sound highly strung, you might want to try to figure out why.

BPD & bulimia, if I remember correctly.