HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
708
Im just too fucking lazy, im suppose to be doing some IT certifications and I rather just fuck around and watch youtube, play games or chat etc.
I already did one (comptia A+) and almost finished a second( googles it support certificate).

But now most days i dont even feel like turning those video lectures on ugh its fucking just annoying and i rather spend time neeting away.
My body and brain is use to this laziness and non work state as i been a hikkikomori most of my life.

I think if i knew all the stuff id be happy to work and make money as IT support specialist but right now networking and sys administration and all those technical shit learning about in depth operating systems etc is annoying and confusing sometimes.

im just not willing to put in the work and id rather be neeting my day away online till i sleep, cant be arsed to put up with that annying shit.

A person whos like this cant have a successful life, im way too lacking in discipline .
 
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John Ryder

John Ryder

"You're a smart kid...you'll figure it out."
Jul 7, 2023
334
I don't feel like answering this right now ...eh? Eh?

If you perceive it as true debilitating fundamental character flaw then it's valid for you and all that matters. *obvious shit about have you taken genuine strides to be less lazy, find motivation etc*
 
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PeaceWanted

PeaceWanted

Unironically biggest r*tard to ever exist
Mar 12, 2023
31
Any reason is a valid reason to CTB... a corpse is a corpse
 
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WaffleWoman

WaffleWoman

Ready to sleep
May 16, 2023
178
Im just too fucking lazy, im suppose to be doing some IT certifications and I rather just fuck around and watch youtube, play games or chat etc.
I already did one (comptia A+) and almost finished a second( googles it support certificate).

But now most days i dont even feel like turning those video lectures on ugh its fucking just annoying and i rather spend time neeting away.
My body and brain is use to this laziness and non work state as i been a hikkikomori most of my life.

I think if i knew all the stuff id be happy to work and make money as IT support specialist but right now networking and sys administration and all those technical shit learning about in depth operating systems etc is annoying and confusing sometimes.

im just not willing to put in the work and id rather be neeting my day away online till i sleep, cant be arsed to put up with that annying shit.

A person whos like this cant have a successful life, im way too lacking in discipline .
In my opinion it doesn't matter what your reason is, If your sure you wanna go then that's how it is in my mind
 
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Ondine0000ff

Ondine0000ff

Water and Dirt
Aug 19, 2023
90
I think it is, because i think that your laziness comes from something more fundamental. Personnaly, i too am too lazy to do EVERYTHING, including living overall, but i know that i dont want to ctb because im lazy, i want to ctb because i think life sucks, which makes me lazy about living, which males me want to ctb.
 
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John Ryder

John Ryder

"You're a smart kid...you'll figure it out."
Jul 7, 2023
334
Alright dude, you've liked everyone's response but mine which is just peak transparent forum diss. I mean is questioning if you've at least made some attempt to take stock or work out the cause for your lack of motivation before just saying "ummph, kill myselfs" not reasonable? Obv any reason is valid, just feels like you want to be actively encouraged to kys imo.
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
708
Alright dude, you've liked everyone's response but mine which is just peak transparent forum diss. I mean is questioning if you've at least made some attempt to take stock or work out the cause for your lack of motivation before just saying "ummph, kill myselfs" not reasonable? Obv any reason is valid, just feels like you want to be actively encouraged to kys imo.
thanks for sharing your opinion , have a nice day.
 
Gaga786

Gaga786

The Odds Are Never In My favour
May 3, 2020
470
It's one of my reasons. I just don't have the energy to do anything in life, and I know that in a few years that'll be totally unacceptable to society for me to live this way, so ill have no choice but to CTB.I feel quite similarly as you. Sorry for your situation, and I wish you the best
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
708
It's one of my reasons. I just don't have the energy to do anything in life, and I know that in a few years that'll be totally unacceptable to society for me to live this way, so ill have no choice but to CTB.I feel quite similarly as you. Sorry for your situation, and I wish you the best
i totally relate to this . im sorry as well.
 
John Ryder

John Ryder

"You're a smart kid...you'll figure it out."
Jul 7, 2023
334
lmfao. It's literally the same shit everyone else told you. "Eww, John Ryder! <3 the internet.
 
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Zaphkiel

IDK
May 13, 2023
190
I'm even too lazy to entertain myself so i can relate.
We each are different, even rich people CTB, even people happy in relationship CTB...any reason is a valid reason if it's your reason.
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
708
I'm even too lazy to entertain myself so i can relate.
We each are different, even rich people CTB, even people happy in relationship CTB...any reason is a valid reason if it's your reason.
damn im not at that level yet but i understand. bless you and thank you.
 
nadia225

nadia225

journey to reach the light
Aug 18, 2023
89
There's definitely something underlying here that you currently aren't conscious of that is causing this to particular extent also. I used to be in that same boat until I realized it was tied to multitude of reasons and experiences that I ultimately internalized that were going unresolved. But if you want to tie it down to this reason if you just being "lazy" then yeah I guess but it comes down to the fact of why hasn't your brain used that as motivation to seek out other way to implement into your life to gather more energy while also gaining more discipline for survival. Instead it wants to end its existence…yep definitely other things on here which is draining your energy and will to live. It's like a obese person who can't stop eating, it knows it doesn't do it any good and it knows the way to change it knows that it is hindering itself and isn't truly happy while also making excuses to blame on itself but it's lack of self restraint and respect. but for some reason it just, won't stop feeding the instant gratification actions that is of which is causing it more harm and not aligning with its will for survival but of death and failure to succeed in a way that will make it actual fulfilled because there is a underlying reason within its human condition that the person is not aware of which is causing self destructive behaviors as a deterrent and a defense mechanism of some sort because of an experience or feeling that was never addressed, one of which internalized into the conscious and subconscious that it is underserving of a meaning fruitful life not. Somewhere along the lines it believes that food and all these other outside frivolous sources the world has to offer with make it better. The mind works in wonderful ways and sometimes on its own apart from the person but because of the person inputs. You may want better may see how to get there may see how to not be lazy and why it's important to not do so but you can't stop yourself from choosing the latter one of which you know is not helpful for your life whatsoever but acts as a vice an escape from the reality of really figuring out why you feel the way you do.
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
708
There's definitely something underlying here that you currently aren't conscious of that is causing this to particular extent also. I used to be in that same boat until I realized it was tired to multitude of reasons and experiences that I ultimately internalized that were going unresolved. But if you want to tie it down to this reason if you just being "lazy" then yeah I guess but it comes down to the fact of why hasn't your brain used that as motivation to seek out other way to implement into your life to gather more energy while also gaining more discipline for survival. Instead it wants to end its existence…yep definitely other things on here. It's like a obese person who can't stop eating, it knows it doesn't do it any good and it knows the way to change it knows that it is hindering itself and isn't truly happy but for some reason it just, won't stop feeding the instant gratification actions that is of which is causing it more harm and not aligning with its will for survival but of death and failure to succeed in a way that will make it actual fulfilled because there is a underlying reason within its human condition that the person is not aware of which is causing self destructive behaviors as a deterrent and a defense mechanism of some sort because of an experience or feeling that was never addressed, one of which internalized into the conscious and subconscious that it is underserving of a meaning fruitful life not. Somewhere along the lines it believes that food and all these other outside frivolous sources the world has to offer with make it better. The mind works in wonderful ways and sometimes on its own apart from the person but because of the person inputs. You may want better may see how to get there may see how to not be lazy and why it's important to not do so but you can't stop yourself from choosing the latter one of which you know is not helpful for your life whatsoever but acts as a vice an escape from the reality of really figuring out why you feel the way you do.
damn you make very valid points. You are very insightful ty.
 
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Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
433
Alright dude, you've liked everyone's response but mine which is just peak transparent forum diss. I mean is questioning if you've at least made some attempt to take stock or work out the cause for your lack of motivation before just saying "ummph, kill myselfs" not reasonable? Obv any reason is valid, just feels like you want to be actively encouraged to kys imo.

I think for some people, making a true genuine effort to better yourself actually involves believing in this life and this society. And if you fundamentally don't believe in any of it, then you're kind of snookered in a way.

I do struggle with this myself actually. I have a sort of bare minimum of standards that I try to adhere to, just to ensure that I remain somewhat in control of my own destiny and can continue to make my own decisions. I would fear if I completely stop caring about everything, then I will lose what control I have left. So it's really a fear thing, rather than being motivated by believing in life.

But I can completely understand where the OP is coming from. It's very tempting to just completely give up and make zero effort. And if you think your life will become really horrible as a result of this choice, then yes it probably could be a justifiable reason for ctb.

But it's completely up to your own perception of how you view your life going forward I guess.
 
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nadia225

nadia225

journey to reach the light
Aug 18, 2023
89
damn you make very valid points. You are very insightful ty.
np but to make you feel a little better. 99.7% folks of the world is having this issue but just in different forms or way more extreme forms but it all ties down to the same thing but manifest in different ways because a persons experience and ways they program their mind is individualized. That's is why you see really successful people cbt or people that seemed happy had family ect. It all comes down to the same thing. Your soul is not being fulfilled in the way it needs to be and it energy is being depleted on the wrong things that aren't bringing you closer to connect the two entities within you in your mind to cultivate in your reality as you see fit. Life is more complex then people seem to make it and most fail to realize themselves and others just living as a sheep in the heart to pushing down the abosolute possibilities within them because it much easier to do that but also because we are conditioned to do that. Never really making any true development when we feed into all this "worldly concepts" such as "money,success,beauty,family ect" and ultimately end up depressed in some shape or form wanting more. But the mind tends to go so far that you can't even recognize or realize the problem because you fed into it too much and now your stuck wanting more more and more. Like idk the government or most corporate individuals. You can probably see this with yourself or people you grew around or even your family. Human nature…if you let it. Once you feed into the world it starts to consume your every being. It's kinda like a trap filled with indoctrination, trauma, suffering, restriction, hierarchys ect. Then you have people like monks and people in that route side who don't have much or who had it all but exchanged it all for nothing because they ended up going on a soul journey and taking on the world in a different manner to find inner soul fullfillment as they see fit they have to break out of that mold or what the world is to do so. It's definitely interesting to say the least when you start to remove the blind fold over your eyes to what this world or life actual is and what we consist of as human beings.
 
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John Ryder

John Ryder

"You're a smart kid...you'll figure it out."
Jul 7, 2023
334
I think for some people, making a true genuine effort to better yourself actually involves believing in this life and this society. And if you fundamentally don't believe in any of it, then you're kind of snookered in a way.

I do struggle with this myself actually. I have a sort of bare minimum of standards that I try to adhere to, just to ensure that I remain somewhat in control of my own destiny and can continue to make my own decisions. I would fear if I completely stop caring about everything, then I will lose what control I have left. So it's really a fear thing, rather than being motivated by believing in life.

But I can completely understand where the OP is coming from. It's very tempting to just completely give up and make zero effort. And if you think your life will become really horrible as a result of this choice, then yes it probably could be a justifiable reason for ctb.

But it's completely up to your own perception of how you view your life going forward I guess.
I mean, excellent points, I don't think what I said contradicts any of this. Anyway this mf just called me a "fake account" in chat just now so, that's what we're dealing with, lol. Best of luck OP!! 🫡
 
wastingtime

wastingtime

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Aug 21, 2023
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i get what you mean. even if i do get up and get work done i feel like the mental energy takes so much more than the average person. just the bare minimum like grocery shopping and cleaning and studying shouldn't be this hard.

i feel like in this world where we have to work our life off every day just to barely get by, CBT is my only option to peace as a neet :') i am a dental student but im barely mentally getting through my classes, the more i study the more i realize the work life is just not my thing. i wish i could stay at home and play ffxiv all day.
 
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jeebuhdaiyuh

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Aug 21, 2023
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I feel you. The thought of no matter what I do no thing will change just makes me lazy to do anything even living.
 
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xyazyppgy

Member
Aug 21, 2023
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I have never dreamt of labor. Even the most noble of professions or things I find temporary enjoyment from — I could never imagine doing for years on end. Even if I was unfathomably wealthy or won the lottery… even getting out of bed or just waking up everyday for that matter seems exhausting and burdensome. There is comfort in having the right to choose.
 
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permanent_solution

Member
Aug 5, 2023
17
i get it, i dont know if its laziness or depression or adhd or whatever, but i just cant seem to make myself do anything. no matter how much i plead and trick myself into doing things. sigh... i dont even know, i feel like if i wasnt so exhausted and lonely - i wouldnt be so lazy. i think, if someone is well rested and with a strong support system, its almost too easy to do stuff. but i might be wrong, i feel as if my brain has needs unmet and refuses to deliver anything worthwhile until i meet them. watching youtube and chatting feels like a desperate attempt of my brain to fill in the blanks with pixels. there are other reasons to laziness, but i feel like this one is often overlooked, ive never heard it mentioned. do you feel this way? or something similar?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm never able to understand the view that suicide supposedly needs a "valid" reason in the first place, seems quite absurd to me as nobody is obligated to continue enduring this existence they were burdened with, we all have our right to cease existing, nobody should have to delay the inevitable for even a second longer than they wish to, suicide is a human right not a privilege only allowed for those who meet a certain criteria that needs to be justified.

And anyway death will happen someday whether there is a reason behind it or not, death is the most normal thing after all and it's only up to the individual when that should be as it's their existence, not anybody else's, it would be so cruel to expect one to stay here and suffer against their wishes.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Arcanist
Oct 13, 2019
483
I can relate to part of this. The part where I know what I need to do, I plan to do it, and then I don't do it. And instead waste away the day doing much the same as you frankly. I'd love to know the solution! I've given it an awful lot of thought and come up with answers but then I keep doing it anyway so they are either wrong or not really understood enough to modify behaviour. My hunch is there is a fear of the change that will come if I follow through, even though in my head I see that as positive, something deeper doesn't. The other main alternative is there is a fear of trying and failing, which is far worse than not trying at all and pretending I would be competent if I tried, I just don't want to. Do either of those resonate with you?
 
ikadasui

ikadasui

Arcanist
May 29, 2018
466
i get what you mean. even if i do get up and get work done i feel like the mental energy takes so much more than the average person. just the bare minimum like grocery shopping and cleaning and studying shouldn't be this hard.

i feel like in this world where we have to work our life off every day just to barely get by, CBT is my only option to peace as a neet :') i am a dental student but im barely mentally getting through my classes, the more i study the more i realize the work life is just not my thing. i wish i could stay at home and play ffxiv all day.
It's literally just struggle without just reward at this point. I think you're either born to have a good normal one and stuff works out or you're just fucked. No use trying to find out the why or how's about it. Winner or a lower that's how games work after all! Hello from a fellow xiv player
 
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front of me

front of me

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Aug 3, 2023
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Iam lazy to be honest, but someone need to move and fight his/her SI
 
wastingtime

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Aug 21, 2023
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It's literally just struggle without just reward at this point. I think you're either born to have a good normal one and stuff works out or you're just fucked. No use trying to find out the why or how's about it. Winner or a lower that's how games work after all! Hello from a fellow xiv player
Exactly. seeing people born into generational wealth or just bare minimum caring parents makes life feel even more unfair. i've lost the battle before i even had a chance.
..at least its nice to have a 'second life' in xiv :') i'm on zodiark if you ever wish to hang out lol
 
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