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HeadPressure

Member
Jun 25, 2020
13
I keep wishing that I wouldn't wake up but still end up doing so.
I even ask God to stop torturing me but he won't stop. Why? Why any of us? Can't we
just be left alone like the others? And they say ending your own life is sin.
 
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InevitablePattern91

InevitablePattern91

Brazilian, 28y. Last weeks of life.
Jul 23, 2020
84
I relate to this. I'm tired of waking up, tired of living, specially tired of mornings (the worst part of the day).

God could just stop torturing us and let us rest in peace with a pacific and painless death.
 
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Blueman

Blueman

Student
Aug 13, 2020
171
The mornings are easily the worse part of the day. When I was working I would get up at 6am no problem now 9am is too early
 
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Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

Unlovable
May 8, 2020
1,864
Every day.
 
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my heart hurts

my heart hurts

Things could be worse, I guess.
May 29, 2019
112
Very much so, yes. I wake up with crippling anxiety every time.
 
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rt1989526

Paragon
Aug 2, 2020
935
Big time. Only thing I enjoy is sleeping.
 
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VIBRITANNIA

VIBRITANNIA

lelouch. any pronouns. pfp is by pixiv id 3217872.
Aug 10, 2020
1,156
waking up, just to go through the same pain, every single day. haven't we suffered enough? i think god likes watching people suffer.
 
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miguel6565

miguel6565

Arcanist
Apr 5, 2020
421
every day,mornings are the worst
 
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Mila

Mila

Member
Jul 18, 2020
31
I relate to this. I'm tired of waking up, tired of living, specially tired of mornings (the worst part of the day).

God could just stop torturing us and let us rest in peace with a pacific and painless death.

Every single day!
 
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IsThisTheEnd?

IsThisTheEnd?

Mange
Aug 6, 2020
584
When I was a kid I use to wake sometimes and be like O shit it was just a bad dream thank god, but now sometimes I wake up like this but it's not a dream it's real.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,321
Yes. Wish I died while sleeping
 
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StarNomad

StarNomad

Member
Jul 27, 2020
11
It becomes even worse stressing about the soon to be coming morning. When morning finally comes then hearing all the cars and trucks driving to who knows where, all the damn leaf blowers, weed whackers then the annoying birds chirping indefinitely outside as well!!!! These things are searing on the mind while fully awake.
 
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Cry

Cry

Member
Sep 2, 2020
27
every day :/
 
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BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
1,634
Yes. I agree with others on here; mornings are by far the worst. I've been sleeping in when I can because I just can't be bothered anymore.
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
Me too. Morning time after waking up for the very first ten to fifteen minutes are when I get that feeling the worst.

It generally improves some throughout the day as it moves on, but then back to being the same most times at night just before falling asleep.

I guess it basically almost always starts and ends this way. During the waking hours of the day I must be trying to convince myself of something better, and tying to ignore it.
 
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SeekingPeace2000

Member
May 8, 2020
17
Sleeping is the only time i feel at peace. I wish i could just go to sleep and never wake up again.
 
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voyager (D)

Member
Jul 14, 2020
60
Yes every day.
 
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virtualoctopus

Student
Aug 15, 2020
169
noEen my dreams are painful. No escaping there.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
I am. I hate waking up everyday.
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,187
I can relate. I often wake up in amazement that I'm still alive- I sometimes half expect to fade away in my sleep and just be done with it all. Of course that never happens, though
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,595
I'm tired of waking up, but I'm also sick of not being able to go to sleep in the first place. It's a cycle.
 
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shadow7891

shadow7891

Member
Aug 17, 2020
19
I hate waking up. Knowing I have to deal with another day of loneliness and depression. Every day is the same, nothing changes, at least not for the better. So sick and tired of this meaningless march through empty days.
 
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GravityUtilizer

GravityUtilizer

Born to lose
May 22, 2020
737
Certainly when I've been drinking! And yes most other days too.
 
Ness

Ness

They/Them pronouns, please
Aug 28, 2019
248
Yeah, I want to stop waking up, too. But I also want to stop sleeping? Just ceasing to exist and thus not having to do either would be great...
 
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albino_elk

albino_elk

im infj with bpd=dysfunctional trash
Aug 25, 2020
233
My opinion. There is no other gods but us. Religion forces us to believe in some greater shit to get money and stuff. We are gods but in this meat ball ,cause we needed something diffrent than to get instantly everyting we ever wanted . we must work hard here to get something. I think its fun if you get an easier game ( life) side,
but ye it can be tuff if you get a shitty place/parents and people around you. English is not my native language i hope you can understand something xd
 
Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,201
Yep, waking up is just a painful reminder of how shitty my life is. I just want to sleep forever.
 
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WatermelonMel

WatermelonMel

Melon Master
Aug 19, 2019
408
Waking up is just a reminder of how good the sleep was and how shitty reality is.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,394
It is such a disappointing feeling to wake up and I think to myself, why am I still here. Just another pointless day awaits. Even know I have nightmares, I love the act of being asleep. It's all I look forward too.
 
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Trojan

Member
Apr 28, 2021
78
I wish every day to die in my sleep.
 
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