Discussion Is anyone here struggling with harm ocd? Tips?

[traingirl]

I've been tapering off Seroquel. I jumped from 50mg to 37.5mg and was really stable. But the jump to 25mg has been harsh. First few days fine but a week in and I'm having horrible intrusive thoughts. For example, I was talking with my friend at the store today and while trying to focus on what she was saying, my brain was imagining stabbing her. Or the other day when I opened my soup can and my brain said, "what if you cut yourself with it?". It's horrible things that I can't get out of my brain and I have had anxiety compulsions before like checking to see if I locked the door but never violent things like this. I feel like psych meds have fucked up my brain chemistry so much and just made the problem into an ugly nasty beast when it was manageable before. I start ketamine treatment tomorrow and I'm hoping for rapid relief but I've never experienced anything like this. Is there anything you do to help with your ocd/intrusive thoughts that works? I'm feeling so discouraged and damaged again. I almost want my gun back. Fuck.

 

[timf]

Sometimes religious people fight back against intrusive thoughts with a sort of reflex prayer. You might be able to come up with something similar that you can use as a sort of mental "fire extinguisher". If you can find a way to maintain control and push back when these thoughts arise, each time you may find that you manage these instead of them managing you.