Discussion Is anyone else overly emotionally sensitive?

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

I find that the littlest things will ruin me emotionally for an entire day and I'm very sensitive to rejection. Not too long ago I deleted a post on here because I got a reply that my brain perceived as "hostile" but it just has me thinking, "why am I like this". I'm not sure why but I'm not resilient in the slightest and the smallest things will upset me. I've been trying to become less sensitive for years but to no avail which sucks because I don't really want to make people uncomfortable when I start crying involuntarily over something minuscule. I also find that I'll just default to wanting to CTB after virtually any inconvenience ever. Does anyone have similar issues?

 

[SeonSeia]

Yeah, I also deleted my first ever post for similar reasons, even tho the response was not actually hostile at all thinking back at it. It just lacked feeling. I have tried to be less sensitive, but my efforts only made me feel like I was getting more sensitive. Recently I've gotten less sensitive purely because I got too tired to give a shit anymore. Does that make me strong or weak? Idk.

 

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

Yeah, I also deleted my first ever post for similar reasons, even tho the response was not actually hostile at all thinking back at it. It just lacked feeling. I have tried to be less sensitive, but my efforts only made me feel like I was getting more sensitive. Recently I've gotten less sensitive purely because I got too tired to give a shit anymore. Does that make me strong or weak? Idk.

Yeah it's hard to tell. Of everything silly I've ever gotten upset over, maybe 20-30% was actually somewhat mean whilst everything else was just bluntness

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Definitely yeh, ever since being a child. I've wondered if I have autism, BPD hell even narcissism! But I think it's all just down to depression that I've had ever since childhood.

People often say it can be hard to portray tone when writing online-there are so many times I've blown up thinking people were being rude when they probably weren't. I've not really had that issue here though, most people are pretty nice. But yeh an argument or thinking someone is putting me down online when I've sought advice about a personal problem can really make me wanna CTB. I usually blow up quick but get over it the next day. I had almost given up on forums til I found this one because people are not exactly delicate online sometimes...

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I am extremely emotionally sensitive. I ruminate over the things people said to me so long ago and the things I did over and over and over and over again.

 

[MBG]

Unsolicited advice: if you want to improve watch some YouTube videos about anxiety, emotional instability, neuroticism, Stoicism and Jordan Peterson.

 

[foreverfalling]

People pleasing and wanting to be liked by everyone, I understand. It can hurt so much to get a negative reaction from someone. But you can't make everyone like you, just as there are some people that you don't like. Take care of yourself.

 

[A_quietboi]

I really have the same exact problem, uk. Thankfully I'm seeking help now

The worst part is when your own "best friend" dismisses you as an attention seeker. He's pretty jaded, so I'm not going to hold it against him. Maybe I AM just an attention seeker. But sometimes, when I hug my pillow and blow into it to make it warmer, I really don't know what to think of myself. I feel like I should be less emotional and sensitive but idk how, I just don't know HOW. Most of the time I just want a hug that's all.

The most surprising thing about myself is that I have really supportive and caring parents. So, I don't think I should be feeling this way. But maybe I just am an attention seeker after all, I just don't know. Feeling emasculated is also a constant drawback for me.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

It varies. Sometimes I feel incredibly sensitive and my feelings get hurt easily but other times I'm so numb its almost like I feel absolutely nothing at all

 

[ButterToast]

I find that the littlest things will ruin me emotionally for an entire day and I'm very sensitive to rejection. Not too long ago I deleted a post on here because I got a reply that my brain perceived as "hostile" but it just has me thinking, "why am I like this". I'm not sure why but I'm not resilient in the slightest and the smallest things will upset me. I've been trying to become less sensitive for years but to no avail which sucks because I don't really want to make people uncomfortable when I start crying involuntarily over something minuscule. I also find that I'll just default to wanting to CTB after virtually any inconvenience ever. Does anyone have similar issues?

I'm actually the opposite... I'm emotionally numb and detached. I could tell you about the worst parts of my life as if im singing you a cute lullaby. This is how I lie to myself, and even though my brain knows what's real or not, my heart is blind.

 

[FailureToAll]

Yes, I relate to this a lot. I'm very sensitive to small things and it feels like all my emotions are much more intense than they should be

 

[Meditation guide]

I find that the littlest things will ruin me emotionally for an entire day and I'm very sensitive to rejection. Not too long ago I deleted a post on here because I got a reply that my brain perceived as "hostile" but it just has me thinking, "why am I like this". I'm not sure why but I'm not resilient in the slightest and the smallest things will upset me. I've been trying to become less sensitive for years but to no avail which sucks because I don't really want to make people uncomfortable when I start crying involuntarily over something minuscule. I also find that I'll just default to wanting to CTB after virtually any inconvenience ever. Does anyone have similar issues?

Just don't care what people think of you, people are stupid that's what I think. I only care what I think of me.
The internet is full of people who want to make you feel like crap and you have to learn to ignore them.

I'm very sensitive to things but not to what people think of me, due to having a dim view of most people who are just random nitwits.

 

[アホペンギン]

I used to be less emotionally sensitive and very resilient as a child but my father took notice of this and directed most mental and physical abuse towards me which weakened me a lot, I can't deal with anything anymore.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Yes

 

[A_quietboi]

I really have the same exact problem, uk. Thankfully I'm seeking help now

The worst part is when your own "best friend" dismisses you as an attention seeker. He's pretty jaded, so I'm not going to hold it against him. Maybe I AM just an attention seeker. But sometimes, when I hug my pillow and blow into it to make it warmer, I really don't know what to think of myself. I feel like I should be less emotional and sensitive but idk how, I just don't know HOW. Most of the time I just want a hug that's all.

The most surprising thing about myself is that I have really supportive and caring parents. So, I don't think I should be feeling this way. But maybe I just am an attention seeker after all, I just don't know. Feeling emasculated is also a constant drawback for me.

P. S. Constantly overthinking every small bit of conversation 100 times and somehow getting hurt by thinking "oh for sure that compliment was sarcastic, there's no bloody way he likes someone as nagging as me enough to compliment me"

I mean, they possibly were sarcastic, but it kinda sucks to compulsively remind myself that MAYBE they were sarcastic.

 

[リンさん]

Same here. I always double, triple take before posting anything, and still get overwhelming anxiety. What if someone thinks I'm being rude? Or too personal? Or too pushy? What if the info I share ends up being wrong, and someone rightfully accuses me? What if I'm not "sick enough" or "suicidal enough"?

It's so exhausting. On so many occasions I've felt like this world just isn't suitable for sensitive people like me. It has always been this way, the overthinking, breaking down over the smallest things. My poor ex girlfriend had to endure so many mood swings of mine, and I still feel shame for ever putting her through all of it

On so many occasions I've shut down and cried over stupid online insults. Can't even take some lame losers projecting their insecurities onto me.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

Can't handel my emotions very well and it causes a lot of pain.

 

[LonelyKitten]

I have felt these emotional sensitivities very strongly.
To the point it has made me want to ctb or act out in destructive manners.
For me, it's BPD.
There is little I fear more intensely than loss and abandonment.
In fact, I have become obsessed with it, throughout my whole life.

So I learned to pay attention to the most minute, the smallest little signs in social interactions.
Is someone or something going away forever?
When there are hints of rejection, I freak out.

It got to the point that eventually, I started fearing it so much that I would bring it on myself.
If my emotions got to me enough, I would intentionally destroy/throw away treasured belongings I thought aren't guaranteed to be safe and that I feared to lose.
The same for social connections.
And in my grandest masterpiece, even my literal Green Card.
Which my entire life was based around, oh.

I think a massive part of what drives me to ctb nowadays (reasons were different as a child) is that I fell so deeply into these fears of loss, abandonment, and rejection, that I ended up rather choosing to break everything and die because it is "certain" and "safe".
No more loss, no more abandonment, no more rejection, and even no more suffering, once I am gone.

of course, in hindsight I regret all that immensely, because it took away my choice in the final moments.
Life is spontaneous, and we learn more and change our priorities as we experience more.
Maybe I would not feel the same way had I actually chosen this route, but the me that walked this destructive path (so, this reality) believes trying to learn how to cope with these emotional sensitivities would have been better.

Induced loss, at least in my experience, feels just as painful as arbitrary loss, except it is an even lonelier experience after the fact, because you can't even talk to anyone about it properly.
("I did it on purpose" vs "this and that happened and I couldn't stop the result".
Which invokes more sympathy, more understanding?)
And I did notice over time, even when you mess up, someone leaves, someone rejects you etc. (which has happened on VERY intense levels in my life, mind you), it's not guaranteed to be the end.
You might see them again, you can make up.
It takes... time and effort, sigh.

 

[Sans]

Yes, too much so. And it works the opposite way too: whenever someone shows me even an iota of kindness I tend to grow way too attached to them really quickly. I'll latch on to anything after so many years of emotional abuse.